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am i crazy?
I could be completely fine and just be weird or something, but i feel like somethings not quite right. im 17, female, and ill tell you a little about myself and my symptoms. i was raised in a very sheltered family but somehow became the complete opposite. my parents both waited till marriage to have sex and always want to know what im doing. i lost my virginity and got a tattoo when i was 16. i also steal peoples cars with my friends when the car owners fall asleep even when i didnt have a license. these are things that would have killed my mom but she never found out. after that i began stealing everything out of peoples cars or stores or even my own house. i sometimes pawn my own parents things and ive even sold drugs before to get money. and the thing is i have a job and dont need to steal or sell drugs for money. and i have a car so i dont need to steal other peoples. but i love it. i love the feeling of stealing and doing illegal things i guess you could say. i dont feel bad about it one bit or even think twice about it. its like i have no conscience. i also feel like nothing is ever my fault. im in all ap classes and have a scholorship to uva for soccer, and i would consider myself to be a smart and mature girl. i just have this love for recklessness and im not afraid to die. everyone tells me im going to die or get sent to jail soon but i dont care. nothing seems to bother me or make me even the tiniest bit upset, and ive never felt guilty before. the only things that could ever effect how i feel are my boyfriend of 2 years and my best friend. im pretty sure i love them more than anyone has ever loved anything. nothing else matters. something just seems a little off because no one else seems to really feel this way. anyone know whats up with me?
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you sound like an addict..do u take drugs or alcohol? being responsible comes when your accountable for your actions and coming from a sheltered tfamily you havnt learnt yet.jails not a nice place and you say you dnt care when you do this stuff but you will.ur spirit inside dosent need all that crap.focus on your scholarship!
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One, I can't believe people tell you, you are going to die.. Going to jail is one thing, but to tell someone they are going to die is another. That I don't think will happen. To live with no fear must feel great. That right there is good, and it seems you are doing really good in your classes, but with the stealing and dealing drugs, if you by chance got caught, then all that hard time you spent in school doing good, and getting the scholarship would be right out the window. I'm not sure exactly how to answer this question, nor do I have a legit reason WHY you actually do these things. You obviously know why, you said yourself you like to do it. I guess try to really think about the other people, how they feel when they realize their stuff/car was stolen, and your parents stuff. I'm sure that hurts them really bad. I'm also confused on why exactly you asked this question when you said, you don't think twice about it. I'm only guessing that maybe something in you, might be thinking twice, or you might be having a different thought about all this? I'm not sure if you want to stop, I would say it would be good for you, especially if you want to keep that school scholarship, but then again, that is totally up to you. If you do want to stop, I would recommend to talk to a consular maybe, someone who is more equipped to handle this sort of situation. Good luck with everything, and good luck with that scholarship, it does sound like your future is right. Wish you the best!
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