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everyone hates me
& I'm not saying that because i have low self esteem.
it's true. I'm 17/f.
recently i moved & now im at a new school since summer. The thing is that i dress a bit differently, like a scene girl. i mean i really like colors so i wear pink skinnies with a red top or blue tights with a pink top. i put on eyeliner some blush and sometimes lipgloss & i have dark hair down to my waist. but i mean SO WHAT? everyone looks at me funny which i can deal with, i even find it amusing but the problem is that i still havent made any friends because of this except for one guy who is a bit more open cause he dresses differently. but i only see him twice a week. so im always alone feeling down & i even started drinking in school (which is usually nothing like me) and a few days ago i found out that everyone is talking about me saying that i smell (which i dont understand cause i shower every single day, wear deo, perfume etc?! ) and that I'm ugly (which i ALSO dont understand because before i moved here everyone kept telling me i'm pretty & even here friends of the family tell my parents that I'm gorgeous etc) and that I'm shit(they literally say that) . and i really dont understand all of this because I was ALWAYS nice to everyone. i made people compliments, asking them how their weekend was and how they are etc..
so why on earth do they hate me? im literally always nice?! I'm never bitchy. i mean its ok that maybe some people dont like my style but thats not a reason to hate someone? and all of this makes me really suicidal. ive thought of killing myself so many times now. and of course i now think that im ugly and that im generally a bad person. i just dont know what to do anymore. its just so frustrating..& it really got me to the point where i dont wanna live anymore. another person even said that i should just jump out of a window or infront of a train.
what now?! i really think that maybe i should?
how can i make my life better?
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Maybe try stepping up your attempts at making friends. Maybe not EVERYONE hates you. And I'm pretty sure anyone that does hate you is just terribly jealous. Cuz kids' words do hurt. But taking your life away will not help a thing but make the bad jealous hateful people happy. Plus you probably have a great life ahead of you, Just remeber, suicide is NEVER the answer. Keep in touch and let me know how things go [: <3
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