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Self Injurer and I seriously want to stop, but how?
I am 13 years old and a self injurer and I have a story. My parents divorced when I was just little, and I have blamed myself for it always. Last year when my paternal grandfather passed away no one told me about it until way after it had happened, and even then I first learned from a newspaper. I wasn't invited to the funeral or viewing. I am always made fun of at school, and I have a lot of trouble at home. We recently lost our house and moved into an apartment in the middle of the city. We were used to life more in the country, so the whole experience is extremely foreign to me. Neither of my parents wants me, but I live with my mother, half-sister, and sister. My mother and sister constantly tell me that they want me dead. I get made fun of a lot now at school especially because I had to move, and when someone asks me why I moved from a nice place into the apartment, I just don't know what to say. I don't want my parents to know that I am a cutter, but I DO want to stop. I know that it is wrong, but I need help stopping. Any suggestions?
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First - You need to realize that it could always be worse.
You could be homeless and not have any parents at all.. I know that you feel you hate your parents. but until they are not there to blame.. you won't realize.
I know it seems like you can't pull through this now.. but your young and you will overcome this.
Find another way to let out your feelings.. Not fighting or drugs.. don't rebel to make a point. No one will recognize this.. you don't have to tell anyoen of your problem unless you know your to weak to stop. Telling us, is one step up.
Write your feelings down on a piece of paper.. and then rip it to shreads. Your letting your pain out and tearing it apart, but in a positive way. You have 3 to 4 years left of hell.. and then you can make a life for yourself.
Just remember, taking your life or harming yourself is NOT the only way to make the pain stop.
Don't think about your parents divorce being your fault.. becuase it is NOT in anyway shape or form. You were young.. some people just can't find a way to get along.. and some just can't find a RIGHT way to separate.. esp. when they have children. You'll be ok sweetie. Time heals all. You'll never forget this.. but if you try, you will grow from it!!
- Try and get your hands on a book series called " a child called it" by David Pelzer.
Wonderful story, that will open your eyes.. and hopefully help you in the right direction!!
Keep your head up, it always looks worse than it actually is (:
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