I believe that your first love will be the most genuine but I might just be saying that because I'm not over my ex. He's the type that acts stupid in public but when it gets to the serious stuff, he's all I could ever dream off. And my best friend thinks that too... She's waited about a year for him and he learned to like her back. I thought I would back off because I already had my chance. It's not working out for me... After we broke up we became really close friends again. We wrestle over candy, we play tricks on each other, and all that and it hurts when he doesn't talk to me but I don't want to tell him that. When we finally had a serious discussion that didn't involve jolly ranchers (lol), I got all angry and jealous and mad when he said that he still loves me but he wants to give my friend a chance. I told him that if I was going to be the junky that he would run to once he's single then I don't want to talk to him anymore. I'm a teenager, I do stupid things. I kept my word for a couple of days then eventually apologized. And now... He's ignoring me. Not exactly ignoring but we don't have the same conversations as before; just short answers that make my heart hurt... I'd like to say that I catch him looking at me but I doubt thats true... I never have the guts to try talk to him since then. I just had to mess things up. So what should I do now? Talk to him? If I did, wouldn't I sound desperate? And what would I say? He's just going to feel the awkward atmosphere and run off to his friends... Should I keep it inside and tell myself it was never meant to be? And I would really love to know what he's thinking whenever he just glances at me, makes a blank face and looks away. I'm sorry if it doesn't add up, just tell me what you don't get because this story is a year long and I left out quite alot of details. I find it kind of funny when I can solve all of my friend's problems but when it comes to mines, I turn to strangers. Thank you for your time *bows*
I know for a fact that if you leave it the way things are now, you are going to regret it. Each day that goes by, you will absolutely regret not keeping a relationship (whether it be friendship or more) going with this boy. So talk to him! Please!!! I know what it's like and I think the biggest mistake that I've made (close situation to yours) is not speak with the person. You don't have to discuss the last thing you said to him, you can just text him something that's joking around. "Hey stranger" or something that'll lighten the mood.
You wouldn't sound desperate this way. The only reason it should be awkward is if YOU MAKE IT AWKWARD. Just imagine the roles reversed, if he didn't make it awkward around you would you feel nervous around him? NO! You know, most people can't be friends after they break up, so since you've gotten over that awkward post breakup stage, you can get over something like this. So basically, you need to be yourself and strive to keep things a constant joke. This will keep you guys from drifting apart.
As for your friend, that's his decission. You cannot make him choose you, but I'm sure he'll realize what he wants, just as long as you keep at it! Don't let it go, trust me, you'll be sorry if you do.
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