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am i losing it?
i'm seventeen year old girl & i'm not making this up.
if your a logical person, stop reading.
i'm almost positive i can predict death. :/ i know that sounds so crazy, and to be honest, i've just admitted it to myself about 3 months ago. I've realized about this since 5th or 6th grade. (now in 11th.) i'm not like some creepy weird sad girl who sits in the corner all day and cries or something. i'm really normal, and it doesn't really affect me.. yet atleast.. its honestly so embarrassing admitting to myself, its embarrassing even typing this out, even to a bunch of random strangers. i'm not a different person really or anything. i like all normal stuff, i dance & cheerlead, do ok in school, have lots of friends, have a lot of crushes, like parties, all normal regular stuff teenagers like. it's really hard for me to even open up to about this. because if someone ever told me this, i probably wouldn't believe them.
Anyway, i guess now to tell you how it happens.. its happened about 9 times. when i look at the person its like something clicks in my mind.. or its like a flash or something. & if i can see the person very very very clearly in my mind, like just some random image, i know its coming soon. i can still see all the people/things in my mind perfectly clear. it hasn't just happened with people, its happened with animals & even two insects. its usually people/things who i either know very well or people i've only met about once. i've never been wrong before. it hasn't bothered me yet, because it hasn't really been anyone that close to me. (except for my dog.. but thats when i didn't realize it.) like, it happens really fast, & i've actually missed it a few times, but after they die, i'm like ohhh yeah. its very hard to explain. i'm actually kind of a more logical person, i don't really believe in all that kind of stuff. i just really needed to open up about this, & know if anyone has any kind of thing like this. & i just need help dealing with this.
thanks.
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I have deja vous about once a month and it really freaks me out sometimes. Or I'll dream something and then it'll happen. One example, I was dating someone briefly in October/November of 08 but it was never serious, then I had a dream within the first week that me and this guy were together and in the dream I was with this other guy and I didn't know his name, had never seen him before but it was dark and rainy and he told me he loved me. My boyfriend and I split in mid november. In February of 09 I was set up on a blind date and a week later we started dating. When he told me he loved me for the first time it was midnight and in the rain and I got that instant flashback from my dream. I hadn't realized it when I first met him but my boyfriend was the mystery guy from my dream. I was freaked!!! I never told him that either. The only person who knows that story is my best friend, along with other deja vous experiences.
Theres nothing you can really do about it. Just embrace it, I was really freaked out at first but now I think it's kinda cool. I'm still freaked about "the man of my dreams" though. Do some research on it, maybe you can learn how to control it or something crazy like that. Good luck!
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Maybe it's deja vu? I mean I'm not really like.. into these super-senses and whatnot, but I wonder if you did some research online?
Maybe those will help you.
--Jack
(17/m)
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