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am i crazy? or schitzophrenic? or wat?!?!?!?!
soooooooo ok this is weird haha
16/f
well im a very hyper funny annoying loud person. im the class clown and i have alot of friends. i have a good life and id consider myself a well liked person that is always busy. everyone calls me crazy because of how spontaneous and trouble making i am. but i am starting to think that i actually am crazy. for instance, i have this inner voice. i call him simon. dont ask haha but the thing is i dont think of it as hearing voices because i know its a voice coming from my mind, not from something outside my body. so i didnt think it was schitzophrenia or anything. but its not my mind either. its like i have two minds. me and simon. but simon only says things about 4 times a day most of the time. i can be thinking of something totally different at the same time simon is thinikng. like ill be showering and my eyes will be closed while im washing my face, then simon will be like someone could be standing right in front of you in the shower and u wouldnt know it. and while he is saying this, my mind is going LA LA LA LA LA LA LA trying to be louder than simon so i dont get freaked out. and this is what bugs me. but sometimes simon can motivate me to do things. like today i was cleaning and simon chipped in and said, clean the sink in less than 30 seconds and you will get an A on your test today. and before i knew it i was scrubbing the sink as fast as i could. also the day after me and my boyfriend got in a fight, almost every task i did, simon said things like do this or your bf will break up with you. or do that and you two will get married. and it makes me do the tasks that simon tells me to do. like even if i really dont want to do the task, i do it anyway. and its anooying because sometimes simon makes me do things i dont want to. not harmful things but just dumb things. like ill be sitting at the couch then simon will chip in and say get the reomte off the other couch or your cat will die tomorow. so even though im too tired to get up, i do anyway. i know this is so rididculous because how would an inner voice control wat happens to me? its so dumb. yet i still keep doing everything it says because im afraid that what if those things do happen. its so annoying, please tell me whats wrong with me! this needs to stop. SIMON NEEDS TO GO. NEED TA GO.
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As the user below me said, if you had schizophrenia, you would not be nearly as aware as you are. It sounds like 'Simon' is your way of motivating yourself to do things. Instead of just saying, 'Yeah, I really need to get this clean. I really need to do these chores.' you put up wages for yourself. 'If I don't do this, then this will happen.' Don't try to self-diagnose, you'll only get confused. If you don't believe us, go to your doctor. He'll tell you the same thing. People with schizophrenia are not aware at all that they have mental problems (unless they are properly diagnosed and given medicine. and even then, a lot of them don't understand the situation) You know that there is no Simon. You know that it's you telling yourself to do things. It seems like you're giving yourself too hard of a time about things. 'Clean the sink in thirty seconds.' 'Get the remote of the couch or my cat will die.'
Most people have thoughts like that from time to time. You just need to keep yours in check and not jump to the conclusion that you're 'crazy'
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Well, the way my doctor put it to me when I was concerned about hearing voices was that if I was questioning my sanity because of it, it means I don't have schizophrenia. I didn't really understand her until I met a schizophrenic individual, and he talked quite calmly about meeting the Queen, and the singer of his favourite band being God.
I know I get similar urges. I haven't personified them, but I know what you mean. As long as Simon hasn't threatened your health, and as long as he doesn't take over your life, you're probably okay.
If you are concerned, try talking to your doctor. They're a lot more understanding than you might think!
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