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Sociopathy
I am 19 years old and I came across a wikipedia page for antisocial personality disorder and I fit a lot of the symptoms but I was not diagnosed with conduct disorder. The symptoms I have, that my fiancé has too confirmed are, apparent lack of remorse or empathy, inability to care about hurting others, inability to keep jobs, impusivity and or recklessness, poor behavioral controls, inadequate control of temper and anger (although I have controlled it a lot better than I have ever done), a persistant agitated or depressed feeling, recurring difficulties with the law (not to many since I turned 18 but from about 10 to 15 I had a bunch for fights, problems with authority and substance abuse. I smoke a lot of weed but I have taken others. Inabilty to tolerate boredom, that's a big one as I'm constantly bored. I remember when I was 9 or 10 me and my buddy would sit in front of his house and think of different ways to torture people, that kind of disturbs me. When my great grandfather died I didn't cry at his wake, I was about 10. I cried for a minute or two at his burial when they lowered his casket. When I was even younger I remember walking to the store with my mom and for some reason I started thinking about how I would react if she were to get hit by a car. I remember thinking that I would just take the money and continue onto the store excited that I could get whatever I wanted. Last night it fiancé got mad at me because her mom was yelling at her (her mom has very bad bi polar). Her mom was saying that me and my fiancé were ruining her life and all I did was sit there and look at my nails, she ended up crying and I just sat there. My fiancé got mad at me saying that she is sick of things affecting her and nothing affecting me, and I tried to tell her that I can't be affected if I don't care. Well anyway that is how I am, if anyone can help me out it would be greatly appreciated. I'm not worried about acting out although about 5 weeks ago I got a boxers fracture because I punched a telephone pole. I just feel completely devoid of all emotions, I don't even feel emotionally attached to my fiancé. Sorry I keep rambling, any insight from outside sources would be appreciated. Thanks.
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to me, the fact that you even give a damn says that you don't have this dsfunction. to me, you're just an emotinally dsconnected person. I remeber when people like that were called aggressive psychopaths, but then political correctness stepped in.... I digress, I've seen sociopaths in the service, they're usually really good at fighting. I think about torturing people all the time, the trick is, do you ever follow through? I've watched some pretty zany things, like taliban getting tore open by machine gun fire, burned alive, blown up, and occasionally had to pick up their scattered body parts. Laughing as they scream and die was always part of the routine, and having a little fun was always the name of the game when I went out to collect the parts. its the guy that can stomach eating spagetti and ribs for dinner on the same day thats crazy. you're not that kind of crazy, similar, but overall you're about where I am, without all the ptsd.
-Gunner
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Go see your doctor and tell him about these symptoms. He should be able to prescribe you something.
I don't think anything else but maybe counsling would help
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