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can't seem to stop thinking about him!
long story kinda short... I went with guy,we fell deeply in love,we moved to different schools,I wasn't really allowed to go anywhere, so we broke up. We contnued to talk as if we still went out a month or two later because we were hoping he would be able to get into the school I was going to. He didn't and slowly I realized it wasn't going to work.I tried to remain friends because I loved talking to him so much but ad time passed he began to change into a complete asshole!! We had an argument a day or two before cristmas. He said fuck you and hung up on me! I had had enough! I wrote him a nice long letter on myspace fussing him out and then deleted and blocked him!! I havnt seen him since last school year and I havnt spoken to him since the two days before cristmas! I was so angry at him and forced myself to not think about him anymore because of how he treated me! I spent alot of time since then by myself which has made me begin to drift into the past when we were together! I can't help but miss him so much because he was my first love! He was the perfect guy when we were together and I miss that sooo much! A part of me feels like slapping the shit out of him if I ever see him again and another part feels like hugging and kissing him! I don't know what to do to stop thinking about him! I keep telling myself that I shouldn't care so much about what he's doing at this exact moment or if he still loves me or thinks about me! I feel like if I had a bf( which I havnt since him) I would have something to take my mind off of him, but I have such high standards. He was the perfect guy in almost every way and I can't help but feel like my next bf has to be even better for me to be truly happy and to forget about him...then I find out he has a gf and I can't help but cry and it hurts me to feel this way about that but I just can't help it. He's moved on and found someone and I'm still madly in love with him.I keep dreaming and hoping that a miracle would happn and he would transfer to my school next year. We would have a looonngg talk but in the end he'd apologize and I'd forgive him and we would go out again and I would finnaly truly be happy!! I hate feeling like this because it's tearing me down and making me very unhappy but I don't know how to stop!! If some would could try to give me some advice please! I would really appreciate it! Thanx for reading and sorry it was so long! :...(
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Aww, I'm so sorry to hear about that. This is a sad story, and I had a similar experience once.
I was in love with that guy for like 3 or so years after we split up and he, too was my first love.
Hard to say, but even if it is a long time, time will truly heal. Of course, you will still miss him, it isn't very easy to give up or stop thinking about a first love. It seems nearly impossible, but try not to think of it too much, it leads to too much stress. I have high standards, too, believe me lol I know how you feel.
The only other advice I have to give you, is maybe it will help by writing to him and see what he says? Write him a poem about how you feel, or maybe try apologizing to him and say "I just don't understand why you said that to me and hung up. It just hurt to hear that from you because we used to be so close." You never know what will happen.
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