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uh i was gonna put this in feedback but i realized it wasnt really feedback it turned into my thoughts again haha so i feel like itd be too long for feedback. seriously though if this is bugging you let me know.
well its not that im ugly or anything, i do think im kind of pretty and i do talk to guys at my school but just as friends. i mean i dont know sometimes im not sure if im pretty some of my friends say that im gorgeous but i usually only get compliments from adults..i think that some of my friends are jealous but im not sure i dont really know if im pretty or not. its hard to figure out. but then sometimes i feel like..im too good for him, not in looks but i feel like he doesnt deserve me. he doesnt really deserve any of the stuff he thinks he is getting from me. sometimes i feel like this is a mistake and i shouldnt go through with it but then part of me still wants to just to have an expirience. but the bad thing is i know that he wont talk to me anymore after and it just hurts that it isnt gonna last. i wish he liked me like he used to. he used to really like me, the first time i met him, he told my friend that he liked other girls from his school but he was like screw them, shes better. i was like aww(: but then a day later he was like so you like me? [first of all what the f. your supposed to say I LIKE YOU] and im like yeahh i know you like me too. and hes like yeah its cool i dont know ill have to think about it.
like wtf douche. who do you think you are making me think you like me and then just pulling this shit on me. thats not okay. then he was telling me how he doesnt have enough time for me cause of basketball which is complete bullshit but okay. but he was like ugh i wanna have good times with you though i want you and your body. like ugh and so basically he realized he didnt like me he just wanted to fuck me. it just hurts like what, is my personality not good enough for you? he doesnt really want to get to know me though. one time i was like you know, you kind of have to earn this you cant just get it. i wanna have normal conversations too..and he was like ok ill do whatever it takes to get in you that night. so whats your favorite color?
...dude. youve got to be kidding me. like is that a joke. and its not that hes a weird guy like hes actually really cool..and kind of a douche bag haha but i just feel like he isnt the best at talking to girls. but its funny cause he thinks he is. ha. what a joke. he was so gross last night here ill show you what he said its still on my facebook he was like,
John:
yeah how ur gonna be ridin my dick moanin playin with your self wit your tits bouncing
ugh are you getting wet>
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...like..uhm..pretty sure that isnt gonna make me wet. hes so immature. and he thinks hes so cool though. riightt.
ANYWAYS haha uh i just rambled for like ever. sorry about that i do that a lot. i dont know but also yeah no other guys talk to me like that. probobly cause other guys are more mature. but i dont know, i sort of wish more guys liked me. i mean i know that some think im pretty just because of the way they look at me but its like i dont know. its just annoying. i used to be fine without having this kind of thing but now i dont want it to go away but it kind of will soon. just sucks. i dont know.
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it's hard to know if people find you attractive and how attractive they think you are. people will lie sometimes becasue they don't want to hurt a friend. if you wanted a clue, try a site like hotornot. put a couple normal pics on there and let the people rate you. that way you can just see for yourself. i can understnad just wnating to do soemthing. i wouldn't even say it's a bad idea exactly. in ways it is good to just get stuff over with. but i think that works better for guys. a shy and unsure guy is not wanted the same as a shy and unsure girl. girls can get away with it much better. before you do anything, think of this please. at some point in your life you are going to find someone and you will decide to go to bed with them. what if that guy was your second guy? wouldn't you feel bad you wasted your virginity on the guy before? now, this "guy of your dreams" may be the third or fourth guy or whatever. but after you lose your virginity you may just hook up randomly because you arent saving things anymore. i'm not saying you should save it. but know that you may regret giving to this guy. i don't know if you are a romantic or not. but the first time should be with at least a friend or someone that you can look back fondly at. there is only one first time. i hope i don't sound like i'm lecturing you.
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