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Suicide is a cowards way..but I AM a coward
Thanku for your kind response..its has showed me that there are those who understand. Everytime I hear her voice my heart leaps for joy. The memories of her voice make me believe I`m the king of the world, but the harsh reality is that what matters is what she says. There has never been any indication that she truly loves me. If I believed that I may have let go, but I can`t believe that, as I knowin my heart she does not love me. The thought that there may be someone else destroys me. I can`t think or focus on anything. Death is a dream, a beautiful dream and it`s appeal has become like a lure into world without this pain. The pain just strikes and the memories come flooding back. I can no longer remember what she looks like. When I see her in my dreams and I wake up, it feels like my world has ended. These memories will kill me. How can you erase someone`s memory from your heart? You can`t, but you can erase the heart can`t you and the way to do that is killing yourself. I am scared to die, I am religious and know eternal damnation awaits me if i commit suicide, but ending the pain at this time outweighs that. My heart can`t take any more. I just an ordinary, bloke who for a few moments experienced the greatest of bliss, and know I can`t return to my ordinary life. I`m torn
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Im kind of going threw the same thing right now. But just know that you can make it.. I know you can. Please do not end your life. You have more to live for. Everything happens for a reason. You are going to meet a girl that is going to blow your mind. There are more girls in the world. I really hope this has brought you some hope.
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