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I actualy want something to be wrong with me
This is probably the weirdest thing you've heard, but here it is. Have you ever wanted something to be wrong with you? Like you actualy wanted to be sick or have a disease or something. I don't know what it is, but thats how I feel. Am I the only one? Does anyone else ever feel like this, or know someone that feels or felt like this?
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I think that you just want/need attention. Maybe you should take up a hobby or be with your friends or family more often.
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15/F diagnosed with hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, premenstrual dysphoric disorder, and obvious depression. Some OCD possible. I just like to make lists :]
I cant remember wanting to be sick, but I dont remember much of anything before getting sick at the end of eighth grade. Im still not stabilized and I feel like everyone can see it, but I WANT them to see it. I lost a few of my closest friends because they didnt understand what its like to be too tired, physically and mentally EXHAUSTED, to move. Im just the girl next door, I guess, so I only ever had those familiar two "BFFs" like on tv [Lizzie McGuire, iCarly, youg get it]. SO I guess I like talking about my problems to strangers and fellow students and stuff because I want to make the people understand
WAAAAIIT I lost my point; but yeah. Have no doubt that a number of people feel and think just like you :]
But I dont get this normal stuff. What is normal anymore? Should normal even be considered a word? Because of the everchanging trends and cliques and highschool crap. Its normal to want to be different. ITs PERFECTLY NORMAL to want to STAND OUT. GAHHHH MY HEAD HURRRTS i only have so much energy :[[
alekfjil;ufal;i sorrry i dont know what happened. i dont blame you for not understanding one bit of this. hah :/
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I've seen a lot of people like this. It's a sign of insecurity. You may think that people would care about you more if something was wrong with you. Or that people may pay more attention to you if you had a problem. Truth is, that's not the case. You shouldn't want to be sick so people show more attention to you. That's not the answer. Think about all the people that has died from cancer and un-curable diseases. Would you want to be one of those millions of people? You should be lucky that you have nothing wrong with you and be there for the ones that do have to live with a disability. Don't take life for granted. If you're a healthy person, thank god for it. Others aren't as fortunate as you. I'm diagnosed with Bi-Polar, Social Anxiety, and Depression and I wake up every morning praying that one day I'll be a normal teenager again. You don't want to go through that every day of your life. Trust me. Live life like there's no tomorrow. There are other ways to seek attention from people. Be yourself, don't change.
x0*-Bryttnii
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Yeah I get ya. I'm clinically depressed, and sometimes I don't WANT to feel better. I wanna stay feeling like crap! My therapist told me most depressive people do that, because they downsize themselves and don't think they deserve to be happy. I ALWAYS imagine my hand breaking, or one of my family members dying or something, or my mom not loving me, or not having ever met my dad. It's wrong because I don't think like this to see what it would be like, but to imagine people's sympathy. That's SAD. I really don't know why I think like this, but I hate having such horrible thoughts, and I've always thought I was alone in that. You should talk to your school counselor, so they could redirect you to a therapist. They're professionals, and they'll know what to tell you.
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I've met people like this before. And sometimes I wonder how I'd be looked at differently if something WAS wrong with me. I also wonder how people who really hate me would feel if something bad were to happen. But I never really wish anything upon myself for the sake of having it. I just ponder the what-ifs...
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