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suicide
i have a really crappy life. my parents are assholes to me all they care about is if i clean and work for them. and my mom gossips about me everywhere telling people that i am mentally retarded and a freak of nature sent from god. And she told my sister that she wants me to commit suicide so she wont have to deal with all my issues anymore. and besides that i have high funtioning autism and im awkward and clumsy so no matter how hard i try to make friends i can never say or do the right thing and no one wants me around and everyone thinks im a freak. i have next to no friends and the friends i do have are pretty crappy they always eventually find people they like better than me. and guys never want anything to do with me ill probably never get a boyfriend and i have to watch everyone else have one and be so loved and i have to go home to my god forsaken parents while everyone else gets to go out and party and be loved by their guy. i could probably stand all of this except for one thing im in love with this guy and i just cant forget about him and he liked me at first and i thought he was different and for once in my god dammed life i was actually happy so happy i was on air but then just like everybody else he now doesnt even want me around at all and now that i no what it feels like to be happy i just cant stand having that feeling taken away from me and being thrust back into this hell :( :( :( I just cant stand it i really dont know what to do i really dont want to die but i dont want to live like this either. all i want is a fair shot at life like everyone else or in the least just one good happy thing in my life to look forward to cause i have nothing and no one cares about me at all so i just dont know what to do should i kill myself or not? what do you think?
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Well i think your parents need therapy. That is no way to treat your own child. I'm pretty sure every teenager has felt like this at some point in their lives. I know i have felt it. I've questioned suicide because i thought my life could not get any worse.
But then i thought about all the people who didn't have what i have. There are so many kids just roaming on the streets with no food or water and no place to stay. You have the essentials to lead a happy life. You have everything you need to stay alive now all you need to do is be happy.
If you think it is necessary, get professional help. It might help you and they would also be able to help your parents.
I was at a point in my life where i thought i needed professional help but i was too scared to ask for it. So i came up with a method to make myself feel better.
Try sitting in a calm place, preferably outside. Then i want you to notice every little detail about your surroundings. Take time to notice the little things. Then, write down how you are feeling. That sounds corny but it really works.
PLEASE DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!
i'll be your friend if you want =]
and remember: You were once the fastest, strongest sperm out of millions =]
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