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hey there
I'm asking you because I've read many of your responses, and I've grown to respect your wisdom and intelligence in all sorts of questions you've answered. You don't sugar-coat anything, and I know I'll get it straight from you.
In the passed few years, I've been around death. My uncle died at 47, 2 friends at 20, one at 22, and even seeing death in newspapers has really molded me into a hypochondriac.
Everyday I'm on the internet obsessing over my health and what could be wrong with me. I edit out all basic illnesses like a sinus infection or tendentious, and replace them with the most serious of conditions.
I envy all my friends who can just live love, and only be concerned with boyfriends, school, and work. Instead of me living my life, and sit around thinking of 40 ways I could die tomorrow.
It's sad, because I'm 21 and I should just want to live, right? I can't do that. And it's selfish and wrong, and all I want in this entire world is to fix it and be normal.
Any suggestions?
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Well,
-Death can be scary, but so are shadows
-Dont think highly of the town drunk
-If you cant be yourself, then who?
Keep those in mind for awhile ok? Good.
And I think you might be thinkin way to much friend. If you are concern with health, clense the body, eat healthy, and work out every day. Try your hardest. Whatever it takes! And if you cant then you have no right to such thought and your only torturing yourself.
Few people use blades to inflict pain, Most do it in there head.
And as for your envy problem. You must know that in human history. Lots of people of high ranks amoung the people told stories for generations about human habits which bring much sorrow and little joy. And how that little joy can be, a powerful thing.
Envy! Is one of those things my friend. Its normel to want to be like someone, but I`m pretty sure your friends arent anyone to look up to.
Being yourself isnt that bad, unless that is if your blain. Basicly a (word for one who choices a ignorant lifestyle) you know. Because if you look up to a idoit, you`ll be a fool amoung dumbasses.
And im sure as a female in this world the want to fit in is much more great then your rare case male
You must acknowlage this if you are to advance in your life. Its just one of those things we all have to do. Even Buddhaman gets carried away on a bad day! And since a barly eat i get alot of`em(Sounds bad but im a health first kind of guy)
I say acknowlage this so you can be on the path to shedding your ego which i can clearly see you have from what you have told me so no hog poshery
The fact that you envy shows that your ego is low and dim as you wrote that. A feeling I had much back in the day before I monked up.
But, You mustnt not envy your friends for it will be the deathening of your soul! There is not good out come when envy is involed. False promises of realization you`ve always desired for what? At what cost?
I have seen why so many religions call them sins with demons attached.
I advise you take a look at yourself in all points of veiws for a short time. If you see falt, dont cry or mob. Do whats for the best and you will feel like the best. Use that mind, see how those 7 sins in that book the bible effects your life and shapes who you are.
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