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I am so pissed off! I just can't understand that I have feelings for someone who is so immature! I like her when I first met her and I never understood it. Now when I couldn't hold my feelings in I told her how I felt in a chat room. She read what I wrote about how I was depressed and confused she respects my feelings but doesn't feel the same. I felt very unhappy because I can't stand to think of someone else having her. I didn't move on yet but my sister was trying to hook me up with some guy at a party but I didn't like him but I was kind enough to hang out with him. I wanted to share her about what happen at the party and then she gets jealous and pissed. She tells me that 'I guess time will tell for the both of us' and that got me very confused. I ask her in an email to explain her self and what she told me that she was jealous of my last two boyfriends and afraid of that if I get a boyfriend we won't be close no more. To me it seem like she has feelings for me. So I am trying to find out if she does, I ask her in a note to explain her self again and I ask if she likes me more than a friend. She didn't reply back for 3 weeks. I myself finally ask her up front face to face why didn't she reply and she says because she already told me in the email about why. I said 'yeah I know but I just need a more understanding.' She said she will read what she wrote me before and then she will let me know. I told her 'why can't you tell me right now? I mean it isn't that hard', I hear her mumble something under her breath 'maybe not for you.' I ask her tens times 'just tell me' and then she finally tells me that she was being over proactive of who I meet. Well I can understand that as a sisterly love thing but it doesn't give her the right to not say anything. Yeah she might be too afraid to tell me because afraid to hurt me BUT she did! She hurt me by not telling me and ignoring the question! Why can't she understand that this hurts me that she can be so immature!!!! I still hang out with her because I am kind of her only friend she hangs with. We Talk and go to movies with our friends but I just can't get over her. I still think that she might like me because I remember how close she was to me by leaning her head on me and that made me felt like she like me because she didn't so much that it felt nice.(she is very touchy person) Now she doesn't do that no more and now I miss it. I want to leave! I am tried of seeing her and having these feelings I just want to move away. I might be moving next year to Hawaii with my parents but it is unsure if we be moving next year. I hate her because she can be so confusing! I feel like she is playing with my emotions and she doesn't take it seriously!!!! I want to get over her now but I have to sit here and deal with the pain. I don't want to hurt her by telling her I don't want to be friends no more but GOD I can't take it! She even asks me in a text the day after I talk her about explaining herself. She asks me if I was mad at her and I said 'yes I just want an honest answer so I can move on.' I just want to yell at her now and just say all my feelings to just get it off my chest!!!
I have no idea what to do.
For you information: I new her in junior high school 2000 and we are still friends. I only talk to her on how I felt about her in chat rooms and emails. I finally got the guts to ask her face to face that night. She only had one boyfriend that lasted 3 days she told me she is unsure of her sexuality. I only had two boyfriends but I broke up with them because I use them to get over her and I told her that. I am a bisexual women and she was my first long term crush, I never like the fact that I like her because I just want to be her friend. I am trying my best to move on but it is hard. Please write me back.thank you
Ps I am sorry that I sound very angry
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Oh gosh, I was totally guessing what you were up until the very last three sentences. [male,bisexual or female, bisexual]
You have the right to be angry. You feel like you're being taken advantage of. Tell her that you understand that she's confused about her sexuality and that it's okay to explore your options- you did. Whatever you decide to do, be upfront and in her face about it. You don't want to like her anymore, then tell her you're over all the drama, even if you aren't over her yet. Start hanging out with different people that aren't friends with her, maybe being with other girls or guys that don't even know her. It won't count as using them if you have an actual connection with them.
If all else fails, count to ten and hope that you're moving soon. :/
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