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extremely low self confidence
15/f
This might be a mental illness of some sort, I'm not entirely sure.
I have a great lack of self confidence. I don't ever say I'm pretty, I don't ever show off. I don't really care. And that is why, when people attempt to compliment me, I just reject it.
As such:
person A: Oh! You look splendid today, dear!
me: fuck off. you're lying.
person B: nahh dude she just wants attention, leave her alone. she's a bitch
And then, person B continues in that same manner, spitting venomous words of hatred at me.
But that's the thing- I'm not lying. I DON'T think I'm pretty. I DON'T think I ever look good. I DON'T think I'm skinny/fit/whateverr. Even if I am, I certainly don't see it in the mirror. (Even my MOM always compliments me and gets angry when I tell her I'm ugly)
I think I like calling myself ugly and I like what people tell me when I do. I like how they contradict it. And I think I get upset when it backfires on me, and that person tells me what they think I want them to tell me, but they won't. (???) Could this be some sort of mental illness/desperate search for attention that is in the back of my head??
Please help ;_;
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hmmmm. this is a toughy. it could possibly be a mental illness. maybe you should google it or something. more information on it may tell you how to prevent it. but i think you should really try your best to recieve your compliments well for example:
girl A: i really really like that shirt on you!
you: thanks! yours is really cute too.
just try and start small and you should be able to build up to more self confidence. and i'm sure you really are beautiful with a great personality!
-olivia :]
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That alone isn't a mental illness.
In fact, a lot of people do it. You likely just don't notice them doing it, because you are too focused on what they are saying about you.
HOWEVER, you are right, what you are doing is nasty, petty and self-absorbed. You DO just want the attention. People will start to not like you because of it. It's not even at the 'back of your head' love, you KNOW exactly what you are doing.
Trust me. That behavoir is, at best, very boring. At it's worse it is annoying beyond belief. As you get older, less people will tolerate it.
So what do you do?
Well you start by politely saying 'Thank you' when someone gives you an honest compliment. Don't argue with them or fish for more, just value what they did say.
You might also start to write down those nice things that people say (the ones you don't beg them for). Look back at them and remind yourself that other people percieve you that way, even if you sometimes don't.
Most people are basically insecure and lack some self-confidence, but it's important that you build that up for yourself and not bully other people into providing it for you.
If you live this way, you'll always be at the mercy of others and they wont always give you what you want. They will get fed up and as you get older, less and less people will put up with it in the first place. In the end the only person whoes opinion really matters is your own. Even though you don't feel that way, it's still true. Without your own good opinion of yourself you'll never feel any better and you'll only drive people away.
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