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Stupid hormones. I hate you.
I'm blaming my hormones for this cause I really can't think of any excuse for someone feeling the way I do. I'm in love with an asshole. Yes, you heard me.. I'm fully aware that the guy's an idiot, yet I'm cool with it. Except I'm not. See.. I walk around constantly being mad at the guy, I hate him. No seriously.. not hate as in "i hate that he doesnt like me" or "i hate that he treated me like a jerk" as in - seriously, 100%- i hate who he is. His attitude towards things, his looks, his way of being. I just don't like it. Yet, I love him. DOES THIS MAKE SENSE TO YOU?? I mean, really, is this normal behaviour?? I hate everythying about him, yet I love him. Now this is not good. Because he's an asshole and we will never be together.. and I made sure to get over him.. I live in another country now (so ill never see him again!!) I deleted my msn and his phone number and go out every night.. I'm doing everything according to the get-over-someone rule-book. BUT IM NOT GETTING OVER HIM! I'm not listening to our songs, I'm not thinking about the way he touched me or the things he said or the way he made me feel. I've accepted that I was being used. That he did not care. And that we will not be together again. Yet I cant help but praying in the middle of the night that one day, he'll come up to me, like something out of a movie scene, and tell me he finally relaized we were meant to be. But he wont. I KNOW him so well, I knwo what he's like, he pretty much said it loud and clear "i - don't - think - you're - worth - it" he thinks im a bad kisser, and he doesnt like my body, and my sense of humor.. HE DOESN'T LIKE ME. I can't seem to get it through my head. I mean I know I can't make him like me, so i have given up.. but it's the WANTING him to like me that I can't stop!! I promised myself if he one day said "lets pick up from where we left off" I'd say: "No." So I guess I don't actually want HIM. I jsut want him to want me. No thats a lie. I want him. Every part of him. I want to marry him. Be with him forever and ever. If I had him I'd be so happy to be me - I wouldn't be able to envy anyone, I'd be able to tell freakin Angelina Jolie "Ha! You might think you're lucky, with Brad Pitt, lots of money and you're perfect body.. but you know what?!! I HAVE RICHARD!!" I love him. I hate him. HELP!!! Do you see?? This cant be normal? I hate my hormones. I hate being a teenager. And I hate that I just turned 17, and I didn't get HIm as a birthday prsent. I hate that I let myself obsess over him for 4 years, and he stopped liking me after 4 minutes. And I hate that everything i think, I think for him. I don't want to get married one day to be happy - I want to get marrie one day so he can see I'm over him. I dont want to go to university to get a good future, I want to go to university so he can see I'm a success. I dont want to get a facebook to stay in touch with friends, I want to get a facebook so he can look at my amazing life and regret not being a part of it.
Help me, please help me, I can't feel like this anymore. Have you ever erased someone out of your mind? Please share your secret, because I'm afraid one more day of thinking about him and I'll lose my mind.
I've done everything that's possible to get over him I swear, I've gotten closure in every way possible. AND I've given it time, lots of time. So NOW what?!
I love him. I hate him. I love him. I hate him. HEEELP!!!
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Hi, I can't say that I know everything about this and how to solve this, but I do know how it feels to be totally crazy over a someone and them not giving me a second glance. Now, I'm a guy so it might be different, but I will answer the best way I can. The way you get him off your mind is by finding someone new. Find them and work to make up for what he didnt see in you. Find the sweetest, guy out there. The kind that tells you you're beautiful, you're sexy, you're great, funny, perfect, and means what he says!!! Find the guy that shows his affection in ways you couldnt imagine. That guy is probably right there, but you are to busy thinking of RICHARD!!! Find that perfect guy, and cherish him, and after that nothing and no one else will matter...I promise. Get back out their find your guy and I promise you will look at Richard and laugh. Hope I helped. Good Luck! :)
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there is something deep inside of him you love thats why you love him you just dont see wat it is right know
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