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Gotta get rid of this crush
2 years ago at NC Camp the speaker asked if anyone wanted to share what God had been doing in their lives that week. A guy behind me that I didn't know stood up and cried as he shared that he'd just given his life to Christ. When he sat down I turned around and prayed with him. After the service he came and found me and gave me a hug, but I didn’t really get to meet him until the next day as we were leavin.
Over the next year I saw him about once a month at Bible Quizzing competitions. Then he graduated and left for college and I didn’t hear from him for awhile. He came home for the summer and has been interning as the youth pastor at his church. Last week at camp he was my team leader for our ministry project, so we got to talk some.
At Thursday night's service God brought back the memory of my father's suicide and laid it very heavily on my heart. After the service he could tell somethin was wrong. He gave me a hug, asked what was goin on, and I told him. We talked for at least half an hour and I cried pretty much the whole time. I remember lookin up and seein tears in his eyes. At first I felt bad about it, but then it felt good to know he really cared that much about me. He gave me encouragement, shared scripture with me, and prayed with me. When I got home I emailed him and asked him whether he would be willing to be my accountability partner. He agreed, and we're going to email twice a week and pray over the phone every other week.
But yesterday I realized I've got a crush on him and it's drivin me crazy. I get a message on myspace and I wonder whether it’s from him. I get one from him and my stomach gets all tied up in knots and I get nervous but excited at the same time. I’ve talked about it with a few people, and I figured out it’s because he’s exactly the type of guy I’m lookin for. The problem is I’m 16 and he’s 19 (2 ½ years apart). He’s starting his sophomore year in college and I’m starting my junior year in high school. He’s my accountability partner, spiritual role model, and a close friend. It would never work for us right now because of where we’re at in our lives. In the future, maybe. But definitely not right now. His friends have told me how highly he speaks of me and my Christian walk, so maybe he feels the same way, maybe he doesn’t. Either way I have to get rid of this crush, at least for a few more years. I don’t want it to come between us, and I don’t want him to think any less of me just because of some stupid crush. What can I do?
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This is honestly a tricky situation.
Even if he does like you you guys def. need to wait.
In the meantime dont stop seeing or talking to him.
He seems like an absolutly wonderful friend.
If I were you I would cut down on how much you see and hang out because your getting attached.
Find another boyfriend to help get over him but never lose the idea of him because one day it might work out for you two.
Just wait and see what god has in store=]
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ok dont forget about him just dont let your feelings get in the way and if you ask me i think he likes you to but its up to you hope i help and if i didnt sorry bye
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