|
It's me, Antnorwe, and I have taken your advice...
...and written a letter.
It's not a piece of art, and it won't win a literary prize anytime soon, but i'd appreciate it if you would read it over for me :)
NOTE: Even if I don't intend sending it, I have to end the letter as I would end a letter I would send. Just for clarification :)
Right, so, here is my piece. Here is what I have to say. As pathetic as it may seem to you, for the past 6 months I have been trying to deal with the fact that you broke up with me and that my feelings haven't changed. Big surprise, eh? Well, its the truth. Maybe I was hasty in saying I loved you. Infact, its almost certain I was. But you have to understand, I had like you longer than you had liked me. So, my feelings were slightly more mature than yours were. And in my own mind, what I said was right. But what I can't get over is that you didn't talk to me about it. You just went ahead and broke up with me, as if some terrible evil would be commited if you told me that I was making you uncomfortable. For christ sake, I would have changed in a heart beat if you had told me. I was the clay and you were the sculpter. But instead of trying to mould me into something you could work with, you tossed me away instead. I mean, what the hell? Did you think I would bite your head off or get angry or something if you had told me? Surely you know i wouldn't have done that. I was as inexperienced as you were, which brings into question if you really did like me in the first place. You told me on that wednesday night that you were worried that, to me, you were like a girl of opportunity - I only seemed interested because you were there, and not because I actually liked you. Well, I have to say I am calling into question your own motives. Did you really like me? Or did you just 'like' me because I was there? It just seems to me if you really did like me, you would have told me what was wrong instead of breaking up with me you know?
Maybe everything everyone has said was right. Maybe you aren't worth my time. Maybe you don't deserve me. Perhaps you just used me and then threw me away when I didn't act the way you wanted me to act.
Whatever it is, that fact is that I have had all of this swirling around my head for months now. And its done a number on me. And its only added to other problems that have been going on...but that would be divulging.
Anyway, thats what I have to say. Despite everything, I wish you the best of luck in life and future endeavors. And I hope that perhaps next time you'll speak to your boyfriend about what's bugging you instead of breaking up with him.
[ ]
Want to answer more questions in the Relationships category?
Maybe give some free advice about: Love Life?
Hey, I really liked your letter. Did you hand write it or type it up (obviously you typed it up to show me :-P) and save it to your computer? Either way, I hope you saved it so that you can add to it just in case you feel there's more to say. How did writing this make you feel?
If you felt a little silly at first, that's to be expected since it was something new for you (I assume) and doing new things can sometimes make us feel like we're not doing it right or it's not worth our time, etc. You just have to push past that and keep up the good work.
Hopefully you're feeling a little better - a little less burdened by all these things you want to say but haven't. I hope this can bring you some peace and help you to move on. It sounds like she was a little immature to begin with and that you deserve someone who will respect you.
You might not see your potential awesomeness, but it's there. If you're going to be with someone, it should be someone who rips that awesomeness out of you and shows it to you. You deserve to be respected and treated with care. The chances of you finding that with someone else increase if you find it with yourself first.
Good luck and keep me updated. Sorry for the delay in my response. :)
]
More Questions: |