just so you know you really are helping me. i really feel so happy whenever i am with him. its a crazy feeling i know but sometimes i get the feeling that he is one of the only ppl that genuinely cares about me. i have friends and all but sometimes i feel so distant from them,like i cant relate to them at all. and somehow for some reason every day whenever i see him it seems as though my life is perfect. and i know that he does care about me but maybe not in the exact way that i would want him to.it hurts a lot.
im reading a book called "hard love" by ellen wittlinger.[the main character is a guy who falls for his friend who happens to be a lesbian] its a really good book especially for people that are going through the whole regection situation. if you ever have a chance it is really an excellent book worth reading. anyways im sorry just thought id tell you about the book. it helps me understand my own feelings better.
its very difficult to understand his feelings. he has problems with commitment because his previous gf was very clingy. which is interesting because he is extremely clingy to me. he is also very protective: today a girl asked me if i was going out with "so and so" and i said no. then HE said "no shes not. if she was i would know about it." and a part of me wants to believe that he likes me and all but i am afraid to trust him. i am afraid to trust people because i am afraid of being hurt. i dont wanna be depressed like i used to be a month ago. i was so down in those days and i dont want to fall into that trap again. thank you for reading all of this, i really do appreciate all your help. there is no one i can ask for help anymore because my friends never want to talk about him. they think that i should just move on and forget about him. but how can i? he means the world to me.
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