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So, I asked the last question....
No ones ever suggested being bipolar... But over the last couple of years, i've been thinking I might be.
And recently, my older brother started going to therapy and they told him that he might be borderline bipolar/schizo.... and we kind of share the same personalities i guess, Like everytime he talks about something he believes or the way he views life, It always makes perfect sense to me, while everyone else is confused and telling us that we're crazy...
But because of my own personality, i havn't grown open enough or confortable enough to talk about how i'm feeling with my brother or my mother... and i've tried, but it's so hard for me.
I find it easier to talk to new people that don't know me... But I think I tend to scare them away or something, because so many people leave me behind. I guess life just scares me sometimes, and like I said before, other times I feel like i'm on top of the world.
On top of all this I have a huge phobia of the whole "medical" feild... Like I can't even go to a hospital without passing out (panic attack) by just thinking about it... I use to be able to go to the dentist, like no big deal.. But as I got older, the fear got worse, and it extended to the dentist, and now therapist too.. (I havn't been to one since I was like 16) And because of this, I'm too scared to go out there and get help again.
I'm sorry this is so long, but you responded to my last question like you understood and no one has ever done that... I guess maybe I just need someone to talk to sometimes.
Thanks
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I'm extremely surprised that no one has ever suggested that you are bipolar. I'd try going to a different therapist (You can go to www.psychologytoday.com to find one in your area). I have no degree of any kind, and the first thought that came to my mind when I read your first question was that you definitely showed some signs of being bipolar. That makes me really doubt how great your therapists were. Did they even have a PhD. in psychology? If they did, I'd be surprised.
But what do you think that your fear of therapists/doctors has come from? From my standpoint, I think that you may be extremely afraid of being let down again. You could be so convinced that no one, even doctors, will understand, that you've built a wall to shut yourself off from them (even the kinds of doctors who really have nothing to do with therapy, such as dentists).
Just remember that doctors and hospitals are there to help you and to make you become better. They're not meant to scare, intimidate, or push you away. Really, without doctors of any kind, where would we be? People would be dying left and right of diseases that would have had no cure if it weren't for the doctors (or, to be specific, scientists) who studied and invented them.
The fact that your brother possibly is borderline, bipolar, or schizophrenic can definitely increase the possibilty that you are, too, especially since you said that your personalities were similar and that you're family.
If I were you, I'd talk to your brother about it. I know it may be hard, but remember that family offers unconditional love and that even if you were bipolar (or anything else), they wouldn't judge or hurt you for it. Plus, your brother would be the number one person to understand you, so you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
I hope I helped, and if you have any more questions, feel free to leave another one in my inbox!
-Manders
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