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I am terrible.
depression is not a mental health disorder.
its a fucking disease.
an epidemic.
its a plague.
its the black death.
and we still think we can fix it; by blood letting.
regardless of our knowledge of how fruitless it may be.
we don’t have too much red.
we have too much sertraline.
we don’t have a disorder.
we have a contradiction.
i hate everything right now. i have been thinking about it for the longest time and i finally figured out why i'm generally unhappy; and it disgusts me. i'm miserable because i don't hate anyone. i used to use that as a way of connecting with people, showing them how beautiful they were by pointing out other peoples flaws, and in return getting the same. but things have changed, i've lost every good friend i've ever had. i have a bunch of acquaintances now, and i hate it.I am hott now versus beautiful for my personality. I feel like no one knows me therefore i complain alot to everyone but, i complain about other things to hide my true feelings about myself.i feel so overwhelmingly disconnected its pathetic. i need get drunk or something, because when i act am drunk or over tired or different, i can think rationally. nomatter what the sucumstances. i need to be drunk, melting into the ground with a cigg on hand or dancing to what sounded like the most beautiful music in the world.
i have no one
all my true friends are gone
the hole summer i haven't woken up to someone i was truly happy or comftuable or safe with
i've been trapped in summerschool maybe summer school helped tho i didn't face the obvious factor of total aloness and not been sitting home
i've lost all of my morals. i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore.
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Hmm... Well let me start out with this, Alcohol is not the way to go no matter how upset and unhappy you are. As for what you are saying to me, you might be thinking you hit rock bottom but this could be a positive stage in your life, and you need to sit and think how to make things great and work again because you are the only one who can really make a difference in this situation. As for your friends, what happened to them?
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