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I don’t know what to do anymore, my life seems to be dying slowly even though I am alive. I don’t want to live anymore; I have imagines everyday of me jumping out my window. My life just seems all messed up. It may seem like nothing to you but all my problems put together are just killing me little by little. No one understands. Today I came from school all upset I couldn’t take it and told my grandmother I don’t want to live anymore. She got mad, called my mom and dad and was yelling at me telling me how lazy I am. She kept saying I’m just a lazy person that wont get anywhere in life without studying. She kept yelling and talking and now her and my mom got into a fight over this. My grandma tried to make this all seem like she’s the victim and I’m taking advantage of her. She kept saying with a grandchild like me the one who cries for every little reason she should just take an overdoes and die. Why on earth would she say all these things when she knows how I feel about life! I go to her are you crazy you bitch, don’t you understand why I want to kill myself you are one of the main reasons. I don’t have a main reason its juts that I’m very unlucky, I have really low self cofidecne, some people tend to make fun of my face, since I have acne and put a lot of cover up on. Which hurts the most because I had acne for about five years and I tried everything, I went everywhere, took her pill possible, and nothing works. It’s like a long rode that never ends no matter how hard you try. You keep running and running until you think you got to the end but it just keeps on going. That’s how my life feels. Now we got new teachers and new students in our classrooms. I hate most of my classes, and most of all I hate my math teacher. Now I’m really bad at math I mean really bad I don’t even know what 7 times 8 is unless I think about it for half an hour. Yeah sad I know. Hes really mean and trys to bring people who are not as smart as him down. I tired getting out of his class but my counselor is such a bitch! She told me to come early to school today so she could change my singing class since they put me in the wrong one. They put me back to the one I already took, so I would be learning everything all over and I passed her class with a 90. I come back at the end of the horrible day I had and she tells me the teacher said its okie and I can stay in that class. I was like butt … she stooped me and said theres nothing I can do. I was like but wait im learning everything over again I don’t understand. She goes yeah I know but then we would have to change your whole program I was like sooo you do it for everybody else. I know shes just a fucken lazy bitch that needs to get fired, Counselor my ass. I don’t know what to do! I hate schhol and wanna quite im only 16 but I don’t see school in my future. My grandma makes me feel like shit about this but I don’t know what to do!!! Please help and don’t say talk to her because that wont work ill just end up killing myself faster. I don’t know what to do with my life. Please answer if you ever felt like this about school and juts ur whole life and tell me what you
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I`m very sorry your going through this.. Yeah i know life is hard i`ve had some problems as well.. You sound very angry to me.. Which i`m not complaining cuz i have my days too.. But i honestly think you need to talk to somebody.. Like go to therapy.. I did this when i had problems and it helped some and i had issues with my mom and bringing her with me helped our issues at home.. Yes this will cost some money but if you have isurance its not that much.. I have a suggestion on the acne problem if you`d like to try it.. But thats completely up to you.. I think Velocity by Mary Kay is a very good product and might help.. I`m not promising but i just thought i`d help a little with that as well.. Um i`d also try talking to your grandma and mom about how you feel if possible.. And when they say mean things to you *TRY* to ignore them.. Yes! i know its hard.. Best of luck SWEETIE!! ♥Dez
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I don't really know where to start. For one, I have felt this way about school, my family, friends, and life itself. You are only 16 years old. You only get one life and one chance to make it the best and I'm sure you already know that. Even though your grandmother seems strick and rude at times, you should know that she loves you. She tends to show it agressivly but she loves you. Same goes with your parents. No matter what, they love you even if you can't see that. Your depression and your feelings are making you think that you don't want to live anymore. You do. Your anger causes you to think that way and you think that it's the best thing to do for you. It's not. Don't say that no one understands you. I understand what you are going through and if you reach out for help, they will too. When I say help I don't want you to think that you are crazy or something but depression is very common in teenagers and some adults. I know that you really don't want to talk to anyone but it's the best thing for you and it will make you feel better about yourself. You are not the only one going through things like this and you are not alone. Why do you want to give up so easily? Fight for the right thing because I belive that there is a brave and awesome person hiden under all that stress and anger. Take steps by steps to make your life better. Please do not end your life or do anything to hurt yourself. You are not only going to hurt yourself but the people around you who care about you. You might not realize that right now but there are people who love you. Life is hard and full of challanges but you are a strong person and you should put up with it and try to deal with it in the best and smartest way. I know you can but before you try to go the right path, you have to belive in yourself. You are not unlucky. You should be thankful that you have things you do now. You should be thankful that you have parents, a home and even the little things. Most kids have nothing. They live on the streets, start gangs and get killed. You are lucky that you are not one of those kids. If you gave things a chance, you would see your life change for the better. The only reason you are depressed is because you let yourself get that way. I used to go through this about a year and half ago and I hated life. I was always in a bad mood, crying, arguing with my parents when I knew I was wrong. Everything bothered me and it made me into a worse person because I let those things ruin my life. I did stupid things thinking it would make me feel better.. woah what a mistake I made. After a while I decided that I didn't want to continue living like that. I changed, but for the better. I was 13 years old and I was way too young to ruin my future ahead of me. Anyways, you are WAY to good for this. When things to bad, which they will, make them better. Yes it's going to be hard, but again it's life and it's going to challange you to make you a better person. School is hard, yes. The people, school work and the teachers drive everyone insane. Somethign I can't take it at all and I just want to quit school because it's hard, but you know what? I don't. I know I want to have a good future and even though it's hard I keep trying and I do well. Then I'm happy about what I did and that I stuck with it. Your math teacher might be mean, but he doesn't want you to fail. Math isn't my thing eather and I hate it so much and it's hard but I try and if I don't understand I get help. Have you tried tutoring? I don't think that the counslor could of done much for that class. I know it sucks that you have it again, but just stick with it and don't let it bother you. Control your anger and deal it with it in a good way. Try getting along with your grandma. Start fresh. When you see her, think positive and not negative. Instead of saying I hate my life, say I love my life and I'm going to make it the best possible. Stay in school and you will go far and becomoe successful and happy. Good luck with everything and I hope you take all of this seriously.
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