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old bf's new love?
now just warning you this is gonna be a long one..
Last year I was dateing this guy and everything was going totally perfect but I still wasnt "in love" like I just never felt like he was the one. Then I met this kid, John. He blew me out of the wate, he was hysterical and Im deff.. attracted to funny people he was literally amazing he could make me laugh like no one else and immediatly i knew i liked him but i waited and i didnt break up with my current boyfriend because i wanted to be sure since he really had done nothing wrong. I knew that john liked me and when he asked how i felt in return i told him i liked him too and i wanted to get to know him better so that week i broke up with my bf for john. a week or two later me and john were dating, happy as ever, literally it was like nothing id ever had before we were so connected and i felt like id known him all my life but we made the mistake of fooling around a little too early and it kindof caused some problems. We didnt have sex but just about everything else we did do and as a result some people found out about it because well neither one of us could stop smiling when people would ask wat all we'd done and so people started to talk. It really stressed me out because i knew i had made a mistake and i didnt need the rest of my school to tell me about it so i just finally freaked out one day. me and john ended up breaking up just because we were both sick of all the stress and all the drama but we both knew deep down that we really liked eachother. A week later he called me and we went back out but he treated me differently, he acted like i didnt matter and i was just his toy and that he only needed me to be there when he was horny. he flat out called me his whore and it really hurt me but he apologized later and told me that the only reason he did that was because he didnt think that he deserved me an that he was afraid of getting to close because he knew hed hurt me and he didnt want that to happen. i continued dating him for a little longer but i just couldnt believe him and i thought that he had lied because i couldnt see how someone could look me in the eye and say that to my face i just didnt understand so i broke it off. he was really emotional about it at first but then he just got angry and cold and for the next few months we didnt speak and when we did we'd only fight and make things worse. i still liked him and he told my friend that i was the most amazing girl he'd ever lost and he knew he wasnt getting me back, he said that pushing me away helped him get over all of it like none of it had ever even happened. So a few weeks later i started dating this guy brad and it turns out brad and john were friends but i didnt know that at the time and john tryed to ruin eveything with brad but it didnt work, we ruined it on our own, we just didnt click as well as we'd thought i guess. so then john started dating melanie, brads younger sister and one of my good friends. it really bugged me but i could never get up enough courage to say that to either of them, i knew i still had feelings for him and i thought maybe he had some too by the way he'd look at me like he wished things were back to the way they were, but maybe i was wrong. anyways, melanie cheated on him and they broke up a week later he called me up and said he was sick of fighting. he started mumbling on and on about how he'd ruined things betwen us and he wished that he'd just been better and that he was never good enough and he said he was a horrible person for everything he put me through and that he missed me and thought abut me all the time he kept bringing up old times and memories and then all of a sudden he got really quiet and said but i.. i could never do that to you i coudnt ask you to... i couldnt put you through that all over again. it was really confusing. but we ended up makeing up and becomeing friends again anyways. im really happy that were at least speakiing now you cant possibly understand the feelings i had and still do have for johnny, he's amazing and i swear the kid has my heart. i could never tell him that though. by what ive said here do you think that he might possibly like me again ever? my biggest regret ever was breaking it off with him, no matter what he did to me i still love him and ive known it all along
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well ask him.
its hard to do...
but ask him....
sometimes... the other person is just waiting for you to make a move. he put himself out there and his feelings it seems.... so maybe you can do the same. tell him how you feel. it cant get any worse! just tell him. ask him. dont be shy! it seems like your quite the amazing girl. just remember that. always.
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