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hey sam,
i was wondering if you could help me. what i did, was i just let my hands loose to type, and this is what i came up with. Ill copy and paste it from microsoft.
Sometimes I wish my life would just stop and come right to an end. My life is a disaster and my life is a wreck. I’m always late to everything, I am poor, my family has a tiny house, and I am ugly and have no friends. Sometimes my life should just stop, for good. And then I wouldn’t have to live through this nightmare. Everyone has a best friend but me. Sometimes I wish that the end would come now. As in today. Sometimes I wish that day was today. Maybe I should pick up the shotgun and end it now. Or the knife. It wouldn’t matter, either way this would be gone. This life should not be lived. This nightmare should go away. I am scared of everything. I have trouble making friends. I am ugly. My face is zit-covered. I have no friends. Nobody loves me like Briana, or Justine, or Sam, even Emily and alexa. Nobody will like me as much as they love Alana, and Hilary and jaquie and Natalie. Even Sara and Sam Virgulty. I am a loner. A poor, ugly loner. I want this life of mine to be gone. Washed away with the ocean water. My life will be gone eventually. Why not end it now? Why suffer when it could be gone now. I don’t understand this rhythm. I don’t understand this horrid life. How can it be interpreted. Why me? Why not the people above. They have the lifes of their dreams, with loving rich families. My smiles could never hide my tears. Why are people so blind. Sometimes I want to let it all out. Let it be. But it cant be. Life is too complicated to be that way. So why cant I cry. The tears wont come. They shall stay hidden and rested forever on. For when I die, it shall be hidden. Nobody will have known about my suffering and pain. Cause they were too blind to see. They were to blind to notice even the little things in my life. It is gone. My life will end. How about now. Nobody would notice, no one would care. They would be blind and I would be gone. Forever.
I dont know exactly what to say. cause i really think that maybe i was letting my feelings come out and i was really ready to let go. i think i am ready to let go. so if i dont talk to you again... have fun with your ''BFF'' and see ya.
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First of all.. I don't have a best friend. Not at all. I'm almost sure I know who this is, but I'm going to act like I don't.
"I have trouble making friends. I am ugly. My face is zit-covered. I have no friends. Nobody loves me like Briana, or Justine, or Sam, even Emily and alexa. Nobody will like me as much as they love Alana, and Hilary and jaquie and Natalie. Even Sara and Sam Virgulty. I am a loner. A poor, ugly loner."
STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE! If you continue to do this, it's not going to work out for you. Trouble making friends, everyone does. Ugly and zits, yeah.. well.. same here. No friends, doubtful. Nobody loves you as much as other people, well, you'll just have to accept that and be thankful for what you have. Poor, you're probably just thinking of yourself as poor because maybe your house isn't as huge as other people's. I know my house isn't.
"I don’t understand this horrid life."
Horrid life? Think about the people who live on the streets of Philadelphia begging for quarters for food, a shelter, clothes. That is horrid. Being looked at weirdly for having nothing.. nothing at all. Think about that dork in your class that everyone constantly makes fun of? The one that is so smart and dresses very oddly and is made a fool. What about them? Makes your life look pretty good, huh?
"My life will end. How about now. Nobody would notice, no one would care. They would be blind and I would be gone. Forever."
And you really think it's worth it? To throw your whole life away? Never going to a prom? Never graduating? No going to college, getting married, having children and grandchildren? You'll never have that all because you're going through a hard time in your life? The easy way out. You are weak. You can't just tell yourself that nothing is worth it. EVERYTHING IS WORTH IT! Work out through this time. It'll be hard, yeah, but you need to do it. Don't throw everything away. It is selfish.
Put yourself out there. Be friendly. Buy a new product for your skin. Most importantly, be yourself. Because as much as I see you are suffering, I'd rather you be hated for who you are not than loved for who you are not.
Hope I helped.. fill me in on what happens!
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