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Okay well my life has been going down the drain ever since last year. My best friend got me into smoking and drugs... we did it together for about a year. After that, she stopped... but I didn’t! Irk why ... but I couldn’t do it! I seem to have lost control. My mom had caught me a while ago doing it in my room, I deny it still to this day... but she knows. All my family knows about it and it makes me even more stressful then I already am! I would stop, but that’s the only way that I seem to release my stress and make me feel better! My friends don’t do it... and I think it makes them think dif. about me. Vie also tried cutting before to release my stress... it gives me something else to think about instead of my problems! Recently vie been wanting and thinking about it each and overnight... but listening to my friends advice - I don’t want to... but I feel its the only thing that works besides smoking. I need help! But not only on that - - imp in love with this kid, but for some reason I don’t think he feels the same way I do about him! And irk imp really depressed... and I don’t know how to explain my feelings to anyone. I cant even tell my BESTFRIEND ... she wont understand - she will laugh about this and think imp crazy! She cuts now instead of smoking now unlike me. I feel like I need to help her and be for her. But then agent I cant be I have my own problems! My other close friend ... she understands me allot! Like I love her to death* she is acidly the one I go to for problems, over my best friend :-/ is that wrong of me? And like I don’t know what to do anymore I keep thinking about my EX. Boyfriend and reading old letters about loving him and having his be my first love and everything... memories keep running thru my head... and I don’t know if that is a signal...?
Everything is bothering me... even the littlest things people say - I feel like I cant even be myself anymore be imp getting depressed like the past :-/ ... I seriously don’t know what to do about any of the problems. Any advice?
Thanks!
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Ahh .. a dreary cloudy Saturday morning (all clouds and no sun), but a chance to finally reply to your e-mail. I first just wanted to apologize for the delay in responding, it's been one of those weeks ...
You certainly have a lot going on in your life at the moment. I just wanted to start off by saying that in no way should you feel bad about relying on your friend for advice who isn't your best friend. Your best friend needs help as well, and relying on her for help right now is not in your best interst. Although it may help to discuss feeling with one another, I would not take the extra step and further burden yourself with stress by trying to help her out as well as yourself. You know actions speak louder than words. If your best friend sees that your taking steps to help yourself, she may follow in your footsteps and do the same for herself. I think that's the best way to help her out. That's the way our world works, we can't be of service to others, unless we are feeling good about ourselves, becuase other people pick up on that. You don't want a hyprocrite to tell you what to do, right? (Does this make any sense, if not, please let me know, and I'll do my best to clarify)
Now lets tackle your situation! Addiction to drugs is definately a hard habit to break! Habits are hard to break as it is, even if you have a habit of waking up and brushing your teeth before taking a shower. Try waking up and showering before brushing your teeth. I bet your automatic pilot system will go on and you'll forget. We are creatures of habit and when we mix chemicals that our body starts to crave, well you can see how tough it really is. So what I'm trying to say is that your going to really have to want to quit, everything inside you should be screaming to stop, because it will be difficult. You said that your parents know? Is this correct. I'm wondering why they haven't come to talk to you and asked if they could help in anyway. I guess first I should ask what type of relationship do you have with your parents? If it's not optimal, I'd check in with a counsellor. I know this might be hard, but you really have to understand they are the most caring, non-judgemental people and have the power to help you out (because they have access to agencies and such) You might not like the first counsellor you meet, but there are tonnes out there, and remember, your number one, so find someone you like and can talk to. I think a counselor would recommend taking yourself out of your current environement for a couple of weeks (easier to break habits that way) ... do you have friends or family a few miles away that would be able to take you in for a bit, or would you mind going to a rehabilitation for drugs place? I'm really worried that you've resorted to cutting in order to quite drugs and smoking ... and so that is why I think it's really urgent you talk to some trusted adult.
The fact that your able to feel love for someone tells me there is something yearning in you to come out ... so please take care of yourself ... this world has so much to offer when your not dulled by the effects of drugs. The simple things ... the ocean, chocolate, a first kiss, walking in the rain ... while conqering your goal to get better, keep a list of things you truly enjoy in this world and remind yourself constantly about these things ... surround yourself around people who love you, you deserve nothing less ...
I hope this helped a bit ... please don't hesitate to ask more questions, to vent your feelings if that's all you want to do (sometimes when you write it down, it's easier to sort out) ... if I haven't addressed your concerns, please try to rephrase the question and I'd love to try again. My e-mail is aly_boschee@yahoo.com ...
I'm off to indulge in a mocha ... chow for now ;)
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