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corrine's suicide attempt has got me thinking. I've wanted to for so long. Now my feelings have been re-awakened. ive had too many problems. ive been hurt and abused and harrased and had my heart smashed too many times. ive lived the living hell. its a cycle. it all happens over and over. After everything ive had to go thru and put up with, and all the horrors and violent memories i have had to live with my whole life, it seems perfectly logical. I WANT OUT. i want the end. and with all my pain, i could do it so easliy. ive come close before, but never did because i have too much responsibility in this world and too many people need me. i didnt want to hurt them, but im always thinking about them, never about myself. i want to think about myself for once. i want this for myself. the pain they'd feel from my loss would be nothing compared to the pain ive endured my whole life. i know its selfish, but ive been so selfless. i know its not right, but ive been wronged. i know its not smart, but im losing my mind. the only thing keeping me on this planet is the fact that people love me. but if they love me,theyll let me go. its perfect. i could do it so easily so quickly and so quietly. i wouldnt scream. i wouldnt even feel the pain. im broken. my soul is sick of crying. it needs to be flying. i cant help it-i love you all but i feel like dying. one day ill reach the point of no return. when you least expect it... ill be gone. so love my prescence now, you never know when ill go.
you just try and stop me.
you know me. you know who this is. look at me closely you can see it in my eyes behind the smile. i know you see my motive. i can taste it in your tears.
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oh my im so sorry you eel this way . I know god would not want you to bak out now there so many things you can do for your sel think o the wonderful things that are going to hapen to you. Some time what seems to be alot of bad things are really just the being to a great trip. i hope you hold and stay strong god with hold your hand throw everything sometimes it seams like hes not there but he is . i know what its like sumwhat you may not think so but but its true. god bless you
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