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I hurt him when he set me free to do what is right for me.
How do you know when it's meant to be or fanticy. When your married I wouldn't say extriemly happy but content. Hadn't been the best some verbal abuse little physical he's an acholic but I know he truely loves me. 3 children and never had I even dreamed of straying.
I thought I could change him, but regardless till death do we part. Then a stranger not even my type of which I'd never take 2 glances at the moment our eye's meet I felt feelings I never felt in my life. I was numb no sexual desire and at once I was alive again. I had urges never before I went places I would never dare. First just innocent conversation but it was like my best friend he made me see the beauty in me again. He should me the good in me I couldn't see.
He from adifferent world I was taught was no good the evil side of the world just because of how he looked. But I saw the beauty of his soul the hurt that hid beneath. How much love he had inside. He made me walk away when he seen how torn I was wanting to do the godly thing, but wanting him uncontrollable so he made me leave and made hisself out to be what he could never be.l walk away to give my home the chance it needs. It's been 1 year now and he's all I see. He sends feelings through me you wouldn't believe. He pushed me away when he seen I was unsure. Still calling me on occassion making me believe he's wild and free relationship will never be. He say's he's a player and has no care but I feel in my heart it's make believe he doesn't want to influence me in any way. And I hurt him when he set me free to do what is right for me. So tell me am I Just making myself believe or could this be my true soul mate meant for me. I'm 31 and for last 10 years I gave up me who I am my percinality the things I like. To be the perfect wife for my country husband just the need to be loved. In the past bad relationships cheated on, abuse, He was the first one who didn't cheat and that ment alot.
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This is your heart responding to a lack of nourishment in your marriage. It feels real. But its not. You are missing something and this man came along to fill that hole, but you are married. No matter how unhappy the circumstances, you've made a commitment and there are things you have to do first before you walk away with your heart. First, you need to try to get into marriage counseling. If you are religious, start with church. Ask your pastor/priest if there are any marriage classes available and if there is anyone in the church leadership who specializes in marriage counseling. If not, seek out private counseling. It may be a bit costly, but what is the price of your marriage and peace of mind? Tell your husband you are not happy, but you want to save your marriage and counseling is where to start. If he won't go, go alone. It will help. It really will. Also, find an Al-anon meeting. These are meetings for family members of alcoholics. There you will find other people in similar situations. You'll be surprised to find out how many others have gone through what you are going through. Here is the website. Maybe you can find a meeting nearby. [Link](Mouse over link to see full location)
Don't give up without a fight. It seems impossible right now, but it can turn around if you are both willing to work. I hope your husband will be willing to work with you to repair your marriage. Good luck.
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hi, i no your not going to like this answer! first i do not believe being acholic is a sickness, just being a coward an afraid to sober up an face the real world. second there is no such thing as physical,verbal abuse love! he dont love you!!! he needs you! to satisfy his ego an his manlyness??? now that dont mean you should go bonkers over some other low life! your in a bad situation now get out of it! but please dont trade one for another! no matter how pretty the flowers look. i am lucky was in love an married 47 yrs an would still be, but cant live forever but you can love for eternity. so clean up your house then take a long look at the future its just around the corner. may the great spirit show you the way. brokenwing
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