Member Since: September 7, 2015
Answers: 3
Last Update: September 8, 2015
Visitors: 694
|
| |
21/f
I just don't like people!
I've read that a lot of people say or feel this way when they've had a lot of bad experiences, been bullied etc.
But this is not the case for me. I haven't been bullied and my experiences were never really that "bad". (I haven't been hurt etc.) I just feel like people bore me and I just can't find anyone who I actually like or sympathise with. Everyone is so pretictable and socializing just drains me because I can't stand to listen to daily boring conversations about meaningless things. The only person I can stand to be around is my boyfriend. But that's only because we can sit in a room together, enjoying eachothers company, without having to make conversation all the time. And when we do talk, I feel like he understands me. The fact that I have no friends doesn't depress me. I am happy being by myself. I do get invited to parties sometimes, but I decline because I feel like it's way too much work, since I don't enjoy myself around other humans. But recently I've actually started disliking people who try to make contact with me. There is one person in university, who was being quite nice to me. It was okay at first and we actually hung out a little, but after a while it got annoying and I started hating him for no reason. Now he keeps looking at me and it makes me think things like "Who does he think he is, what makes him think that he can look at me?". Same with an acquaintance who lives further away. We chat on facebook sometimes and I am fine with that. But now he keeps calling me and tells me that he wants to visit me soon (We've seen eachother in person many times, so he's not a stranger on the internet), and I just get super angry at that. No, I am not afraid of being close with someone and I am also not afraid of loss. There just isn't anyone, who I WANT to be close with because I can't relate to them and they just annoy me. I also don't feel empathy towards humans. Sometimes I even chuckle or think things like "ha-ha!", when something bad happens.
I wouldn't hurt anyone on purpose, but I don't care if people do get hurt.
I feel a lot of empathy towards animals though, so I doubt that I am a psychopath or anything like that. I love animals, I feel joy whenever I am around my cats. I don't expect anything from them, I'm just happy when they're there. And I don't need them to follow commands, so me liking animals has nothing to do with the fact that they don't talk back and listen to everything I say. (Which they don't, because they're cats) I even like that they have a mind of their own and only cuddle with me when they WANT to and not because they worship me.
I just feel so drained from being around people every day and having to make conversation (which I don't even do a lot). Whenever I get home from classes, I just sleep for 1-3 hours, because I'm really really tired.
I am not a sad or depressed person, when I can be by myself, I do things that I enjoy and it makes me happy.
I don't even want to change that I'd rather be alone, I just need some help on how to deal with NOT being alone. How can I get rid of the hatred towards people who show an interest in me? And how can being around them be less draining? Has anyone ever felt the same?
English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry for any mistakes. (link)
|
1. scenario
You desperately want to look special and untouchable. You want from people to desire your company. So first you make contact. You give advantage to the boys because they will easier fall for you. And that is not because you are so interesting but because they have expectations. You chat with them in order to show them your value. When they show their interest you won, so you don`t have need to hang around with them or to chat anymore.Being ignored they are having just more and more interest for you. And your ego is fed.This went so far that you actually wrote all this on some forum to seek confirmation about how you are special from random people. That is the reason why you don`t have female friends...Actually why you don`t have friends at all or at least a person with you share some interest with who you can speak about something you are passioned about. In similar way is functioning your relationship. Your guy adores you because you treat him in the same way he feels about himself, and in the same way you feel about yourself- unworthy.Find self value.
2. You are in love.But not ordinary love it is possessive relationship. One of you is quiet, introverted person and the other is the person who controls partner`s decisions, time and actions.i suppose in that case you are introverted person because you have problem to interact with people , problem to express yourself, to explain how much you want them in your life or not.. So you are the one who feels guilt if don`t satisfy someone's needs. Even if those needs don`t match with yours.You put other`s feelings before yours.. So you are shaped by your enviorment. You feel trapped and have desperate need to escape. That is why you have to run away from people..because you attract only people who want to invade your life ..just like your boyfriend. The truth is that people are not empty. In every area that you have interest and passion there are people with who you can have interesting conversations instead of daily boring conversations . Instead of that you are focused on your boyfriend and cats and people you dont like. Because you don`t know the other way to fill your own emptiness.
|
21/f, 28/m
This may sound weird to you. But three weeks ago, I had symptoms of UTI. So, I started drinking a lot of water and I took AZO (urinary pain relief), and usually doing just that sometimes help. I did that for six days and it didn't help so I went to a doctor and they prescribed me antibiotics (ciprofloxacin). It didn't help. It relieved the pain, but I was still peeing frequently and I still felt a burning sensation toward the end.
So, I went to another doctor who took a urine test. He was aware that ciprofloxacin didn't work for me (he thought that was strange), tested my urine, and ended up prescribing both me and my boyfriend antibiotics to take twice a day for seven days. He predicted that if he just treated me, he thinks my boyfriend would pass it back to me again. My boyfriend didn't have any symptoms so we thought it was strange, but we took the antibiotics and followed his instructions.
I finished the antibiotics today. The symptoms are gone. I don't have any burning sensations when I'm using the restroom, but I am starting to use the restroom frequently again. I decided to take a home kit test from AZO to see whether or not if I have symptoms of UTI, again. But my test came out positive on leukocytosis but negative on nitrate. Meaning that I have a trace of UTI, still.
I'm a little bit frustrated because i've already been to the doctor twice without insurance, and I have spent money on medication, and somehow I'm not better? I thought it must've been a false positive since I ended the antibiotics, I also started my period today. Should I wait until my period is over and test again? (since I accidentally got blood on my test and then it turned purple). What do you think I should do? (link)
|
In this cases dont listen to doctors..I was always for clasical medicine but in my case antibiotics did not helped .But there is one diguasting natural solution.
buy a bottle of white wine and garlic. Cut garlic into a small pieces put into a wine. cook it. next 24 hours dont drink. after that one big glass per day. Most disgusting taste in the world. But that is strong natural antibiotik for urinal problems. Never will get back again.Promise.
Also buy origano oil.Mix it vith olive oil and drink to or three drops per day 15 minutes before every meal.
And a lot of water, lot of tea.. in a week , max two weeks your problem is solved
|
First off, I don't need life advice. I would goto therapy if I wanted that.
I want to end my life. This has been a long-time, depressional thought process. I've tried numerous things to find self-esteem. For over 20 years, I have dealt with bi-polar type behavior.
I did some research on one diagnosis. Borderline anti-social personality disorder. Due to repeatedly having the police called on me due to attempts at suicide, I cannot purchase a firearm, legally. So, possessing a firearm would be difficult.
I have come to wanting to go by, "Suicide by cop". At a prison. Where the tower marksmen shoot to kill, not to injure. I'm tired of life.
What are other ways to go, other than by harming someone or by natural means? Something that I could induce during sleep. Force a major aneurysm.
I don't want, "I need therapy help", comments. Just a way to die somewhat peacefully. Just so you know, I understand enough of the human psyche to bring myself towards unrecoverable depression. Which I have been doing for a few months now. (link)
|
If i would tell you that right now i understand exactly how do you feel i would lie to you. My life is going pretty well.
There was a time when i felt extreme depression, when i felt abondoned,when nobody including myself didn`t see me as normal human, when what i wanted to live and what my life was ..was so far from each other,when i was mad on them because of suffer they caused me, when i desperately needed relief and peace and reconnection with my real nature.
I cant tell you what to do because only you can feel your feelings, think your thoughts and do what is best for you.I can tell you what i did in my life.
I didnt kill my self.I am really happy for not doing anything like that because my life changed now.I found another way to feel better. Like i sad I cant feel what you feel. But it can be better. I know that for sure.And i would like that for you.
For some death expirience is that fastest root to feel better.But for so many others there are other paths..less dramatic. Those who you leave behind will be very mad at you but i suppose that is the reason why you wanted that .You want to get even to them in that way.But it wont help they will just be mad at you more.It wont come compassion or understanding of your feelings and your suffering. They will just confirm their bad thoughts that they already have for you.
So instead of giving them that power Maybe it would be better of just take the helm and reject to reply to what any of them think? Anybody who feels this strongly about something as you do posses powerful desire within you ( i believe in that with every my cell) to find a ways to feel better. I promise you ..it is possible !
|
|