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i dont know where to start. im so frail and i trust and forgive people too easily, especially my so called best friend.

ok so i dont mind if we hangout with our other friends, but she said that if we hangout with other people, we have to tell each other beforehand, and i was ok with it bc it didnt rlly bother me. to some this might sound controlling but at the time i thought she really is my best friend and will keep her promise but turns out she cant keep a promise that she made me follow. so then these past weeks ive hung out with other people which is not her and ive told her every single time, and everytime her replies are along the lines of these "wowowow im ditched again" (when shes not even close with them), ".....k", "wtf ok im not ur best friend anymore" just disapproving and trying to convince me how bad a person they are, trying to convince me to not hang with them, and i have to reassure her that no one will replace her spot as my best friend. this is not the first time and it has happened in the past. its not like she doesnt have friends, she actually do have a lot, more than i do, but i dont mind because i thought as long as we are still close its ok. but then she hung out with other people without telling me. im not mad that she didnt tell me, im just confused about why she would do something that she made ME promise her not to and a promise that she started herself. and everytime i found out by going on social media and im just generally confused, and a little disappointed, i guess sad as well to why she would break her own promise. and the thing is that we will like chat, act like nothing happened and the next hour i will discover that we broke her promise again, but i wont confront her, because im scared that it will ruin our friendship. i know this is probably a bad thing, but i just still wants our friendship to be here and ive allowed her to run all over me these past years and just simply dont know how to stand up for myself. thats why im asking who ever is reading this, what should i do?

i might not have phrased it well, but i hope who ever read this mess will be able to tell me what i should do, thanks

Dear "best friend" breaks her own promise,
I remember when I was in high school and I had a friend who was a lot like this. She would get really jealous when I would hang out with other people, even though she would hang out with a lot of people I did not know. It is easy for somebody on the outside looking in to tell you how to handle this situation. It is not their feelings, emotions, or friendships that will be affected by the actions you choose to take to handle this situation. With that being said, I think you should just have a long conversation with yourself. You need to figure out what you want and need out of this friendship. You can not change someone else. All you can do is change how you react to them. So if you are unhappy with how you are being treated stop allowing it to happen. If she is a friend worth fighting for, than she would care about your feelings and give you the space you need. You should also use this situation as a personal life lesson to teach yourself how to put boundaries in your future relationships. Boundaries on what your friends or future partners can or cannot control in your life.
Best of luck, Rose xx

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...to try to "tame" my crippling anxiety in a way. I m 1000% against filing for any disability, no matter how horrid and unbearable my anxiety is. I despise the very thought of *not* working, so disability is not a potential option.

I am seriously thinking of applying at Cato, the clothing store. But I m TERRIFIED of dealing with money in any way. How can I overcome this horrendous fear? I ve never worked in the public before, only in a factory for a brief period, so does anyone have any advice on working in a clothing store or just in general public?

Thank you so much!

Honestly, I completely understand where you are coming from. I have terrible social anxiety. I remember when I wanted to be a pharmacy tech in retail really bad. The only problem was that I was scared to death. I applied anyway, because applying for the job is the easy part. After I found out I got the job I was so excited! Well..... until I got there. I had no clue what I was doing at first so I had to learn. There were times when I was in my head for a long time worrying about what all these new people I have to work with thought about me. Every time I had to do something I wasn't used to yet I would have a small panic attack. My heart would race, I was breathing heavy, and I was constantly in my head about what “could” happen if I messed something up. I was also hoping no one could notice I was freaking out. In those moments I would concentrate on my breathing and then have a quick conversation with God. There were times when I was going to quit just because I was too scared and anxious about it. Every time I thought about quitting, I would tell myself Quitting is not an option. I have to prove to myself my anxiety will not control me. I told myself that everyday and everyday got easier and easier. Now I love my job. My advice to you is to just concentrate on proving to yourself that you are bigger than anxiety. - In my prayers, Rose xx

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I hate my life, i hate who I have become. I don't want to life. How can i change, i want to kill myself.

There is a point in everyone's life I feel, where they sit down and analyze who they have become and where they are in their life. it is easy to not be happy about how your life is at this very moment. especially if you are to compare it to others. you need to ask yourself why do you hate your life. what is going on that makes you unhappy. The first step is to pinpoint that so you can do something about it.

I am not sure why you are so unhappy, but if it is self image, you need to realize that you are perfect the way you are. There is so much crap in the media trying to convince people that there is only one way to be attractive. That is not true. You have to embrace who you are and be confident in yourself. You have to remember that anyone that says negative things about you, says more about them than you. Only unhappy people feel the need to talk about others.

If you are unhappy because of some things you have done in the past, you have to forgive yourself and move on. Everyone is ashamed or regrets something they have done. Its ok to mess up in life once in a while. The trick is to learn from it, forgive yourself, and move on. You will never find happiness if you stay stuck in the past instead of focusing on making the future better. You are in control of your life. Please embrace that precious gift, strive to become the person you would be proud to know, and take advantage of this amazing opportunity to follow your dreams. -In my prayers, Rose xx

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