Q: I have a boyfriend. When I first met him, we started talking as friends, and those feelings turned into a relationship. He asked me out the first time we hung out aside from where we met. It was Valentines Day. He would have been considered to be my first boyfriend. I was scared to get into the relationshp because I was terrified at what was going to happen. My parents wouldn't have approved of me dating now but I figured I was old enough and if everyone can hide it, why can't I? It was pretty difficult for me to adjust to the feeling of depending on my relationship with a person to have a certain mood. It was hard to see each other when we started dating because my parents were so strict so we saw each other maybe once a month or every two months. Suddenly, he started feeling as if we were distancing and I, somehow, felt better about our relatioship. Talk about miscomminucation. I found out that he broke up with me, over the internet, saying that he's ever so busy and he feels like we're falling apart. I find out from someone else that he went out with this other girl and they made out a few times and whatnot. In the end, it turned out she was very slutish and he said he was done with her. Too bad the girl is his best friend's cousin. Anyhoo, we started talking again after a few months and I still had feelings for him, he knew, but was apparently too scared to talk to me. He finally did one day, on the night of my highschool graduation. I actually made a wish into a fountain for it. I was highly surprised. We started talking since and we ended up going to the same college. He told me he doesn't care about her and I have nothing to worry about. It still bothers me because I feel like I'm beneath him in some way. The girl thinks shes still friends with him, I guess they are, because he's a nice person like that but she can be a total b*tch. I don;t know, I always wonder what if she was good with him. Then what? I know I should be happy that he is here with me but I keep wondering, am I meant to be with him? I can't tell if I feel reluctant to give my everything to him after what he did. The last thing I want to do is get back at him by doing what he did to me to make it even but somehow, I feel that if I did get the opportunity, I will and I might lose him. I'm so confused.

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