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Well ever since i was little Ive had depression and anxiety...Ive tried almost every type of antidepressants, anxiety meds and all kinds of therapy, except shock therapy...I've been in inpatient programs three times as well as out patient...no matter what i do and don't do, I'm always soo depressed...not a day goes by that i don't want to die...I'm 19 now, still suffering from horrible panic attacks and suicidal thoughts...i have a boyfriend and i love him so much...and i don't want to live with out him...but my depression and anxiety makes me push him away...and its not him saying it...i no i do it...i just want to be happy...i haven't not wanted to kill myself in over 10 years...Ive tried suicide 6 times and was hospitalized each time...but for some reason nothing is helping me...i don't know what to do...i'm going insane and slowly giving up...Ive tried everything...HELP ME PLEASE!!!

As you probably know all too well by now, there is no magic switch to turn depression off and a person who hasn't experienced the feeling might wonder why you just can't snap out of it. One of the best ways to deal with the symptoms of depression is to help to another person. Think of all of those kids out there who are just beginning to walk down the path you have been on for a long time. Think of that young kid who feels as if they just can't go on anymore. Tell them your story and give them some knowledge on the subject. It is pretty hard to feel down and useless when someone needs your help. Volunteer at something you believe in. Force yourself to get out of bed and accomplish one thing on a daily basis, even if you don't feel like moving. Excersize brings out endorphins and dopamines that give you a natural high. Many times people who are depressed are the most caring sensative people in the whole world, which is why they get hit so hard by the sadness around them. Please-please-PLEASE-don't give up. You never know what the future will bring. A good book that always makes me feel better is, "Oh, the Places You'll Go," by Dr. Seusse. Also, I know you have tried counseling before, but maybe if you found the right person they could really help you work things out.

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