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I cut myself, and I really want to get therapy for it. I can't tell my parents, though. I'm too ashamed to tell them. Also, they're kind of neglectful. There's a large chance they wouldn't even get me help. How can start seeing a therapist without them knowing?
I know exactly how you feel. I have a devastating past secret, so I thought cutting myself was the answer. But it wasn't. But the difference was, I cut the top of my wrists unknowingly :P I was young. I'm not much older than I was then, but I've come a long way. And I know it's addicting, in fact, sometimes I still feel like I want to cut myself now. But the majority for my cutting purposes was to get attention, I used to CRAVE attention! And I got a lot of it. But there are other ways to be on the spotlight without risking your life. They say if you cut the bottom of your wrists, you can die because the blood line runs so fast, the blood can shoot up directly into the air. So fast you may not even have time to get help :( And I don't know about you, although I'm pretty sure, that if that did happen, before you were about to die, you would regret it ALL as it was happening. But the thing is, people your age don't see the way out. They don't see the clear path ahead of them. You haven't even started your life out yet, you're only 15! Why do you think some of those 40 and 50 year old's pretend like they're in their 20's? Because that's right when you start living! You don't wanna throw it away before it's thrown at you, do you? Be honest with yourself (and others). One thing I like to do is write it all down. That may explain part of my username, Depressed_Poet. And plus, I heard it as someone else's nick-name so I sorta picked it up... but anyway. I still have scars on my wrist. Let's say you're on a date with a guy, and he notices the scars on your wrist. He asks what they're from. You have two options. Lie, or tell him what really happened. And there, hun, you can't win. The lie will come back to you, if you do. You'll feel guilty and he'll figure it out. On the other hand, if you tell the truth - he might find you as an anti-optemist which is almost always a turn-off because guys like girls with confidence. Go to a school guidance counselor if you have one, and talk things over. But in parent-teacher conferences, they might talk to your parents about it. I know the feeling you're having. You want someone to talk about it so badly, but you want it to be a secret between the two of you and nobody else, right? Well maybe that's just what happened to me. In fact, I even have frequent fantasies about random people helping me through my problems, even though I'd never dare really say anything to them unless they were to bring it up first. You know? But you have no idea how healing it is just to talk about something. Write down how you feel, see a school guidance counselor, talk to your parents or a therapist (It's worth saving your life!), and maybe even fantasize about talking to people if you need to. Helped me.
Much Luck, hun.
(Rating: 5) thank you so much.