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i think there's something wrong. its as if i have forgotten how to cry. nothing phases me anymore. i dont show any emotion just laugh at everything at school. at home all i want to be is alone. i dont eat unless im totally alone and i dont watch tv unless alone. after school i come home and 'hide out' as my mother calls it in my room. i think about the way ive made so many mistakes and how i wanna roll back time and how i deserve so much punishment and how i should be perfect and need to lose weight. anorexia right now. i need help just tell me whats wrong or what i can do u think.? inside im so dark and want to nearly kill myself sometimes but the outside of me shows nothing. i cannot CRY!

Sounds like you suffer from severe depression.

I battled depression for seven years before finally winning the war. Because I've dealt with depression, I suggest seeing a doctor. Especially if you are also suffering from an eating disorder. Depression is very dangerous. So is anorexia. Please seek the help of someone that can really help you.

If you don't know where to go... Try talking to your parents. If you feel uncomfortable seeking the help of your parents, tell a teacher, guidance counselor, someone that you trust that has the power to help you. You can also tell your family physician. (When I finally did seek help, I told my family physician first.)

I suffered in silence for years. I was suicidal. But I was lucky... I made it out. I'm still alive, and it's a miracle. Don't endanger your life... Tell someone. Don't stay in the frame of mind you are in alone.

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