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all my life I have been judged by so many people. Im a nice person. I dont like being mean to people unless their mean to ME... I alway thought I looked pretty when I looked in a mirror, but sadly, nobody agrees with me. Everyone thinks im ugly! This ass named CJ is spending the night at our house and its only because he's on vacation from California and we have known him since kindergarden.... I was a stupid retarded little girl in Elementry school... I didnt know any better. I was always chasing guys for fun.... and now that we are in High School, I thought I had changed so much from then, but CJ said I havnt changed at all, and just now, I was upstairs watching tv, and Colton started a fight with me about how a chopper was a motercycle and not a helecopter (it can be both) but they his little friend joined in the fight and THEN the little bitch told me to shut up because I was annoying! it all started when the little booger wanted to play my brother's PS2, and I was watching tv, and these little twerps wouldnt stop making fun of me, and THEN my brother's little friend told said "Brittany told me your a dork" (he said it to me before, but when I asked Brittany, she said it wasnt true because she dosnt tell her brother ANYTHING) and im starting to think that everything everyone is saying is true.... I dont know why everyone is so mean..... I have dreams, but there crushed under the feet of my stupid brother, and CJ, and my sister Hollan, and EVERYONE! Hollan wont stop taking my stuff that little brat! Im a triplet, and my sisters have always been telling me "Thats why WE have boyfriends" and I havent gone out much, but my first bf was a fony... He asked his friend to ask my SISTER, Cher out..... but he accidently asked ME out instead, and I said YES! WHat was I thinking???? Well im really in a bad mood right now because today was also the day my dad made me do the dishes and he's not even getting the two little boys into trouble! its just me! Just because Im the older kid, dosnt mean that he shouldnt care about ME.
My family is soooooooo horibble... Me and my brother and sisters fight all the time, sometimes my mom even crys about it. But my sisters are bad people... They sneak out and stuff like that, and it makes me mad because they think their nold enough to have sex and all that (but I dont know if they have done it yet) but their the kind of people that think they get every boy they want... and the truth is.... they do... they get all the boys, and Im stuck inside.... Just today, I came outside and Hollan's all like "Go the fuck away! No one wants you here" and I just came out there to hang out with her friend Ali....
Everyone treats me like SHIT! I even bought my sister HOllan a $40 jacket at American Eagle Outfitters.... AND SHE'S STILL AN ASS!!!!!
(im not trying to brag) but Im a nice person! I dont like to be mean! I dont like to make people cry! But no matter how nice I am to people, they are always mean to me! THey call me names like dork, nerd, geek, and my sister even calles me a prude! It really makes me mad...
I remember I got in a huge fist fight with my sister Hollan on the front Lawn, and Monae and Ali and ANika were all watching and they didnt bother to do anything! I have been picked on my whole life and im too nice to do anything about it! I mean I usually dont fight back because I know I'll lose.... I always lose.....
I dont know what to think of myself now..... (link)
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ok well, look on the bright side, CJ is only staying there for a little while, so he is only temporary =] once he leaves then you have one less person to worry about right?
now i know that some people will say to be a bitch right back, but it doesn't sound like that is something you would do. also, think about it, if you be a bitch back, what will it solve? -- not much because then fight will just continue to get bigger and nastier.
so i have two options for you that may or may not work:
1) next time your sisters or anyone puts you down, just look at them. just stand there, and look at them, but show anger. you can sorta show that it hurt you, but then just walk away. -- so your probably wondering why i told you to do that. well basically, if you shout and get angry you have just shown them that they have won the battle. but if you just stand there quietly and walk away, it confuses them because they are expecting a reaction out of you. your reactions make there cruel behavior fun for them, it almost satisfies them to see you hurt which is pathetic.
2) just calmly say something like "do you really need to put me down all the time?" and see how they answer. but the key is to say it calmly, that way they know your serious. once again, don't throw a fit.
you guys are triplets, so you probably all look alike, the only difference between you and them is that they have put you down so much just to build their own confidence and then you are left with very little confidence. boys like confidence. just do your hair, put on some makeup and make you feel good about yourself because if you look good, you feel good =] then stand in the mirror and tell yourself you look pretty. i'm sure you are gorgeuos, you just lack the confidence, and plus you have a bonus feature, you are a nice person =] use your personality, not only your looks and even more people will like you.
if none of this helps, then just try going out with more people so you won't be home as much. if your relationship with your sisters doesn't change, maybe talk to your guidance counselor at school if you have one. my guidance counselor makes me feel so much better =].
good luck =D
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good point.... Thanks for the help :D
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