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Okay, I wasn't sure if this was good enough for the health section, but I was just wondering about something.
A little over a year ago a friend of mine was in a car accident due to drinking and driving and she didn't make it. I was completely torn up about it. I wouldn't say that I'm over it now, but I've found other ways to deal with it.
Recently another friend of mine was in a car wreck and was injured pretty badly. The first week or so that he was in the hospital he was in a lot of pain but he was there. He understood what we said to him and he could talk back to us clearly. By the end of the 1st month it was just like something was eating away at him, he was like a mentally ill person. You couldn't understand what he was saying, and well I don't know if he could understand me. He lives in a different state than I do (I moved away a few years ago) but we still kept in close contact after I moved, he even helped me through the death of the friend I mentioned above. I owe him (and a few others) my life. But anyway, about a week ago his health completely deteriorated. He is now in a coma and I feel really guilty because I have shown no emotion whatsoever. I'm living my life just like I did before. I cried once and that is when I found out. And that kind of scares me. I am not that much of an emotional person, but when somebody like a brother to me is in a coma and his mom doesn't really love him (she used to abuse him) and wants to pull the plug thing that is keeping him alive (sorry, I don't know what it's called) because she is sick of paying for her sons mistakes (she told me that when I talked to her) I just don't know what I should be feeling.
How come I'm not feeling anything? Is it wrong not to be feeling anything knowing that such a great person and somebody so close to me may die?
I don't know, I'm just confused, I needed to vent and just see if anyone else has experienced or knows somebody who has experienced something like this. I just kind of found it weird that I was sooo devastated when it came to my one friends death, and now this person, and I've cried maybe once...
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you're not a bad person, it just seems like it came as a shock to you so maybe you just havent actually accepted it yet. maybe you were also just closer to the other person than you are to this person in a coma..visit them in the hospital if you havent already just to say hi (well, you know what i mean) and see how he's doing. people also respond differently to situations so it might just be that too.
anyway, im sorry about your friends and i hope this helped a little bit...
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