Ask Eissac!

13/m, insanely long story short, we were friends, over the summer I realized I liked her, I told her because it was driving me insane, she wasn't sure in what way she liked me. In other words, she felt sorry for me and didn't want to hurt my feelings by telling me she didn't like me as more than a friend but didn't want to lie by saying she did like me. Don't give me any of that "teenagers don't know love" crap. Even if we don't, infatuation is a vital phase in our lives, eh? So anyway, after a while, I started dreaming about her---I even dreamt that I asked her out successfully one time!---and everything started reminding me of her... the usual stuff. I tried asking her out in person. Didn't work. So I was over her for about 3 days. Then everything reminded me of her---even more!!! When school started, we found things too awkward to talk to each other. It was just... weird. Things have started getting better though. But it was weird for about a month or two. The only way we talked was over AIM.

Then last week I started playing guitar, using my dad's old electric one and one of his acoustics, depending on which one my sister (she was also trying to learn) was using. So I was IMing her (she plays acoustic) and then I said that I was trying to learn guitar, and that my next attempt to play a piece was Another One Bites The Dust. Her response? "thats totally hott!!!" So that was pretty cool. Then the next day I walked into school and she stopped me right in front of the science room. She had dreamt about me. Apparently, I started rocking on the electric guitar, and then she joined in on acoustic, and it was cool, and then we went to the moon. She's a spaz.

But anyway, does she finally like me? Everyone said she liked me last year. My friends, my family, they were all saying it. But we were both in denial. Like one time my best friend came up to us and said, "You know, *her name*, you look like *my name*'s boyfriend!" We both dismissed that thought and walked away. But she was like flirting with me all year. And as the class loser/nerd, I'm blind to anyone dropping hints or flirting with me.

Yesterday I IMed one of her best friends and asked if she had liked me last year. ("She" being the person I liked, not her best friend.) She logged out. Does that mean something? Or did she honestly not know?

Last night I dreamt that the friend IMed me back and sent me the URL of a blog about me. It was all about how much she liked me last year. It was really sweet! And then in science class that day someone put the Spamalot soundtrack into a CD player and the only 2 people who knew the words were her and me. So we did a duet of The Song That Goes Like This. It was cool.

So obviously she's taken over my life, if I honestly call this a "long story short" which it honestly is, surprisingly. I can't stop thinking about her. Everything reminds me of her. Roller coasters? We went to a carnival together. Egypt? She hugged me on the day I made a presentation on Egypt. The game Batik? It sounds like a Greek-ish name, she's from Greece. Obviously I'm obsessed. Is there any way to stop that apart from finding someone else? Because right now I've kinda got my mind set on her...

A few more questions. Does she like me? How can I find out? I think I had a few more but I forget what they are...

A few things not to say:
-There are other fish in the sea. I'm not really looking for others, first I have to either get her to like me or to get over her. Take life one step at a time.

-You could probably pick up any girl! Not really, most girls hate me, whether it's because I'm really nerdy, I'm a loser, I talk too much, or I don't really care about my looks and thus aren't hot.

-You've got the rest of your life to live! Well, yes, but first, I have to reach the rest of my life outside an insane asylum!

Yeah... I'm sorry, when I get started on her I just keep going and going and going... sorry... I should probably shut up now. Oh, and any responses violating the ToS will be reported without hesitation. That includes unhelpful advice. Thank you so much, you don't know how much this means to me!!!

P.S. For what it's worth, she's hugged me three times... every time I've rejected it for some unknown reason... like if you've ever read Flowers for Algernon, you know how whenever he got too close to Alice Kinnian he got scared and couldn't go through with it for some unknown reason? Yeah, it's like that. I'm still partially child and I guess half my mind is ready for this and half my mind is still saying that "girl are icky" or something like that....

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