I have been best friends with this guy for years and I love him to death ( as a friend). I went through an abusive relationship with another guy and my best friend was always there for me and helped me back on my feet. He's just a really good guy who doesn't have a lot of experience with girls. A few months back he told me he had feelings for me and i decided that he was the type of guy i needed, that was "good" for me, so we started to date but it got awkward and i ended it and we went back to being friends. last week he told me he was in love with me and i told him i couldn't deal with having a boyfriend right now because it stresses me out and that I want to be friends, he was upset but agreed. We then went out as friends a few nights later to a club and I ended up going home with him I was super drunk and we were about to have sex but he said he was too nervous. The next day he told me he couldn't because he's a virgin and he knows I'm not and he was really scared because he loved me and didn't want his first time to be while i was drunk. The next day i realized i made a huge mistake and he got so mad at me and said i lead him on and I used him. I really didn't mean to. Long story short we got into a series of big emotional fights and he decided we cant talk anymore because he's hurting too much. I know this boy cares about me a lot but I just cant bring myself to be comfortable with having a boyfriend right now i went through so much with my ex boyfriend i'm scared. All i know is that right now I miss my best friend SO much and I can't even talk to him anymore. He told me not to contact him unless i change my mind. I miss him a lot and i know that when we were officially "together" it was awkward but i love spending time with him. He is the type of boy I would marry, I just cant deal with that right now. I feel like I've lost him forever and i'm going to regret it all one day. i don't know what to do. How do I get him back into my life without committing myself to a relationship? Any ideas?
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