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I keep dreaming about two subjects in particular...
Hi all, 23/f. Just wondering if anyone has any insight.
I have PTSD from my ex boyfriend physically abusing me (I left him in October 2010), and a car crash I had in 2006...but I thought that was better. The physical abuse led to whiplash just like the accident, so maybe that's where some connection is. Anyway...
I keep dreaming about two things: (my) suicide, and (my) wedding(s).
So far, these dream experiences have stuck out to me:
*I've driven my car off the side of an exit ramp into a lake, thought about opening the window (I have an old car with hand-crank windows), but chose not to and then woke up.
*I saw myself as a little girl climb onto a railing on a balcony and walk straight off. Someone checked her and proclaimed her dead. I was watching little me do this, standing in my wedding dress in a very very bright cathedral. I never saw the groom, and the wedding never actually happened. I woke up walking away.
*I was rehearsing for my wedding with my old choir from high school - we were singing in it...at some point I was sobbing and mopping the carpet somewhere, and angry, but I don't know about what. I woke up after that.
*Last night, I dreamed I was talking to my ex-before-last about my wedding. I think he was the groom. Near the end of the dream, I was crying on the phone to him, and standing in my bedroom at my parents' house (I've lived out of their house for almost six years), and I think the wedding was canceled or postponed for some reason.
Like every single night I dream about something like this. I'm so tired of it, and they so disturb me, I can't begin to tell you. I don't know if it has anything to do with the fact that the ex who abused me is someone with whom I was living, and discussing marriage, but these dreams didn't start until recently...ish.
ARGH!!
Any ideas?
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Hey,
Here's what I found on Google, if you really believe this stuff:
Suicide
To dream that you commit suicide, represents your desperate desire to escape from your waking life. You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.
Marriage
To dream of a marriage, signifies commitment, harmony or transitions. You are undergoing an important developmental phase in your life. The dream may also represent the unification of formerly separate or opposite aspects of yourself. In particular, it is the union of masculine or feminine aspects of yourself. Consider the qualities and characteristics of the person that you are marrying. These are the qualities that you need to look at incorporating within yourself.
To dream of a proposal of marriage, suggests that some situation will take a turn for the worse.
To dream that you are getting married to your ex, suggests that you have accepted aspects of that relationship and learned from those past mistakes. Alternatively, it means that a current relationship shares some commonality with your previous relationship with your ex. However, since you are aware of the similarities, you know not make those same mistakes.
Not sure of how helpful this was. Best of luck!
K
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Honestly, I do not think that anyone is qualified to answer this question. You obviously are having very disturbing dreams and you should talk to a professional about it. These dreams could lead to possibly hurting yourself.
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