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Cutting
I have a serious cutting problem. I just got out of rehab for depression and suicide attempts. I was there for 3 months. My cutting habit started in rehab. During day treatment, I began scratching myself with plastic tweezers during Art. I cut when I feel anxious, I cut when I think about my ex. The only girl I ever dated, 5 month relationship. She abused me and was obsessed (clinically, extreme OCD). She hurt me and took control of my life, but some how i still love her and think about her and want to be with her. We aren't allowed to talk, but we have seen each other a few times and I just break down. She still loves me. And more than anything I would love to be back with her. I know that I don't need to, but after all the stuff she does to me, I still am in love. I cut as a punishment for thinking about, talking about, or anything else about her. Which is hard.
This is mainly a two part question.
How do I stop my cutting habit? (I do hide things and I am on anti-depressants)
And,
How do I get "out of love"?
Thank You So Much.
17/F
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its kind of hard to stop if your mind is set on cutting... you are going to think about it right away when something goes wrong, I've been through it. try seeing a counsler, my counsler recommened throwing ice cubes at a brick wall, screaming or ripping up a phone book.. I never tried them though, this sounds kinda crazy but take your sheets off your matress and stab your bed with a knife just let out your frustrations or throw things against your wall, but things that are nice and soft loll I've broken a lot of things because I used to grab whatever I could be my hands on. From now on don't let your feelings bottle up in you, because it just gets worse.
with the whole out of love thing, sorry I can't really help you there the only thing I can think of is finding someone new, that puts you in a better mood, because even though you love her she's making you upset also
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many people do that to punish themselfs i used to do that, i know its easier said than done to stop bc its addicting after a while so the sooner you stop the easier it will be. the only thing you really can do is move on, theirs much better people in the world an she hurt you. i have extreme ocd and its very hard but eventually people learn to manage it. please dont even think to kill yourself that is the worst possible thing on earth :( it causes so many people pain i found that out the hard way. every time you cut and giv yourself a second of it it hurts everyone that loves you for a few days its extremely hard for people to see you in pain. your ex controlled you and tried to take you over, just live your life and try to be happy, go out with your friends be free from the control and maybe find some other girls out there. theirs no going back so just live your life to the fullest. if you try and stop thinking about her and how much she hurt you then youl start to recover then try and cut less day by day, after like a week yould be surprised. everyone hides stuff its ok. it just takes time to get over someone and stop cutting but if you try your hardest every day to stop it youl do great :) im having a bit of trouble right now myself so i dont know if this answer will make much sense but if you want i can redo it just ask. i know you are a very strong person just dealing with some hard times but everyone has trouble and people just need help sometimes
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