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I can't stop thinking about him no matter how mad I get
when I first moved I wanted to get my life back together cause I had made a lot of bad decisions where i had lived before and I wanted t start out fresh new school, new environment. So i had started this new school and only about 300 hundreds kids go to it its a charter school. well I had met a lot of new people cause its not hard for me to make friends well I had only being there for about a month when I met this really great guy....named tanner an well we got know each other and of course we ended up going out....well it soon ended up that nobody wanted me to be with him cause he was apparently racist or something and that was the case he had just had a lot of gf's and so they all said it was only going to last about 2 weeks well it ended up being about a month and then he said that he had to many family problems and he couldn't handle the pressure so he broke up with me at a party on someone else's cell phone through a text message so not cool and I was a bit wasted so I cried and then drank more.........well as my story goes on it was officially over I gave him his stuff back and tried to forget all about him but it just wasn't happening he was all I thought about never thinking about anything else I tried calling him and asking him if it was really over well he kept saying he still wanted to be with me and that it was just hard well I find out that he got another gf and he was trying to make me jealous well it wasn't working I didn't let it so weeks went by and he wanted to decide when we talked to each other and when we didn't well I wasn't having it I stopped all contact with him I was so mad. It ended up I just could not be mad at him there was no way he was all I thought about it killed me......then he asked me out repeatedly and I said no I couldn't do it even though it's what I wanted . the months flew by new crushes and no i still could not stop thinking about him well it went to the point where I would always talk about him I convinced myself I was in love with him and we would eventually get back together i still think that will happen....... but he had started to threaten my friends with his current gf at the time and I wasn't going to have it so I layed into him cussing him out with nothing holding me back its been almost a month since I have talked to him and just recently I have given him the time of day or even looked at him but even though I was really mad I still thought about him periodically through the time I was mad and I'm thinking again that I might me in love with him but I don't want to be it's crazy will someone please tell me what to do or what I should do!!!!!!! i wrote a novel but I couldn't have written it any other way to make people understand so sorry for how long it is but please take the time to read it and help me out....it's appreciated!
♥alyzza
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maybe try telling him how you feel or image someone is him and vent. and just remember if you dont trust that person dont go into a relationship because soon enough youll get hurt. hope that helps.=]
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