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This guy totally creeped me out and then he killed himself a
18/f
This guy from my theatrical make-up class committed suicide 2 weeks ago, and I feel like I am at least some to blame for it.
he was older, like 23 I think, and he was always nice to me, but very annoying, and several girls in our dept. said that he was like a big time stalker.
After class about 3 days before he did it, I was sitting in front of the library trying to study for this test, and he just came up and started talking to me, and just ignored that I was trying to study. He started telling me how last spring he and his fiance had broken up because she had an abortion, and the girl is in 2 of my other classes; so I really didn't want to know that, even if I don't talk to her. Then he told me how she had taken like the only copy of some really special picture of him from when he was in high school and she took a crap on it and flushed it down the toilet. Again...I didn't want to know that. So, then he gave me this pic of her and asked if I would do the same thing to her pic. So I could get back to studying, I said "Sure, I promise that I will.", threw the pic into my book, and he left.
So, then he adds me as a Facebook, LJ, and myspace friend, and calls me at my dorm room even though I didn't give him my number, and my idiot roommate gives him my cell number! Now this guy was always telling everybody "Just be honest with me about how you feel-tell me yourself if you don't want to talk to me." But I couldn't-he hadn't really done anything wrong, but he was majorly creeping me out. Like I was constantly looking over my shoulder and all.
So I had one of my guy friends who hasn't came out of the closet yet call him pretending to be my bf and tell him to leave me alone, and I blocked him on facebook, myspace, and LJ.
He called me at like 2 am when our class started at 8 that morning, and I didn't take the call and deleted the message w/o ever listening to it. Towards the end of our class, this campus cop walked in and whispered something to our prof, and she started crying. They had just found his body outside of his dorm after he had jumped.
Now I feel all guilty because I didn't take his call, and I just found that picture that he gave me today, and he has turned my life into a nightmare this past 2 weeks. I was just in his class-why did he do this to me? This is my first year of college and my first time away from home, and this is just so much. I feel like I may as well have killed him b/c of what I did...Am I wrong to feel this way?
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These feelings are completely normal. The man made you uncomfortable and you handled the situation whte way you thought was best. You would have NEVER intentionally caused this man to hurt himself. He may have had some mental problems and needed help.
I think it would be best for you to see a counselor about these feelings. Death is a hrd thing to deal with when you feel it directly affects you this way. I am sure there is a counselor somewhere on campus you can speak with and don't be afraid to lean on your friends, and family esp., for support at this time.
Best of luck.
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