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I feel I'm a waste of space I'm an older person and yet I get yelled at by my 27yr old nearly every day. I feel this way also as I was a cleaner and hurt my back nearly 7 years ago. I was on workcover who was suppose to retrain me but all I got was 4 days word 4 days spreadsheets basic computer and yet I am suppose to get an admin job. Well I've tried have had to write down 5jobs a week for over 2years now and no one is willing to give me a go. In August workcover decided to not pay me anymore so I went on a centerlink payment which lost me nearly $200 a fortnight can't pay my bills, I was going to a psychologist which they no longer pay for yet I feel I need as I have felt quite often suicidal in the last few months and I can't even buy anything to end it all. I have decided now some ways I do not need to buy anything and I have made a time limit on when this will happen as I feel my children and granddaughters will be better off. After this November I probably won't have enough food to survive, I can't pay my bills, I can't get a job because of my bad back, my daughter yells at me, NO ONE cares about me and workcover has made my life hell. I feel I,m just exsisting. I have a court case against workcover where the judge was suppose to give an answer before christmas and here it is the 10th Jan and no answer.
I just can't deal with this anymore, I can,t afford anything there will be no christmas presents this year and probably no birthday present I feel so bad about this but I have tried time and time again for a job.My emotions are out of control so am I a waste of space? (link)
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Sounds like everything has got on top of you and for good reason I know you feel your in an impossible situation at the moment but let me assure you that things will change for the better. Firstly can I suggest that when your 27yr old decides to shout at you tell him/her that your not going to put up with their behaviour and suggest they move out. Afterall why put up with somebody who is making you feel undervalued. Secondly contact those concerned who are keeping you waiting and insist the court gives you a date. If you phone daily its likely they will get fed up of hearing from you. Thirdly can I suggest you spend about 20 minutes per day on your own and try to visualise yourself living in better circumstances - this is to free your mind of worrying as sadly worrying about problems never solves anything.I want to take this opportunity of wishing you all the best and although the thought of suicide may enter your mind from time to time its merely a sign that things have to change and you need to take control of those changes. Good luck
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I am not a good person. I have made many poor choices and no matter how hard I try, I cannot seem to stop screwing up. I know suicide is selfish, but I just don't want to hurt anyone else. I know that by committing suicide I will hurt many people, especially my daughters, but if I stick around I will hurt them more over the years. I have tried everything and nothing has worked. I know I will go to hell, and I am prepared because I deserve it. I tried to get God to stop me or help me or save me, but He hasn't. He just lets me continue to hurt those I love. I have researched, and thought this through for a very long time, tried to get every help I could. Am I missing something? I don't think there is any other way out. No matter what I do, I will hurt my loved ones. This seems to be my only option, but before I go and do it, I thought I would just ask. Maybe in the depths of this pain, I have missed another choice. Maybe not. (link)
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Firstly lets get God out of the equation for a minute and concentrate on your own efforts. You say you have tried everything and nothing seems to work. Well what exactly have you tried to do differently? It sounds to me that despite receiving support from outside agencies your still making the same decisions and choices and so nothing has really changed.I wonder if your simply punishing yourself for the mistakes you have made in the past and assuming that you will continue to make poor choices in the future. Blaming God for allowing you to continually hurt people is a bit of a cop out. Take responsibility for your own actions and concentrate on doing things differently from now on.What is it about you that needs to change? Could I suggest that you start telling yourself that despite not always making the right choices your not such a bad person afterall, just human like the rest of us.Give more thought to how you can make your daughters lives happier and share in their enjoyment by focusing on them rather than yourself.Good luck and welcome to a new way of thinking.
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