Hello, my name is Christina, but my close friends and family call me Stina. I grew up with both my mom and dad as drug addicts. Thankfully, my dad quit, but my mom is still a drug addict. She used to be an alcholic, too, but she quit. I have one sister, and four brothers. I am the youngest. I dont really have a family, the only family I have, is my sister's family, and my boyfriend. We're planning on getting married one day. I am obcessed with dragons and the music groups Slipknot and Stone Sour. They're the only heroes I have besides God, my boyfriend and my sis and her family. I love to draw, sing, be with friends and family, to cuddle and to give big hugs, writing stories, poems and songs. I have a deep love for people and animals (especially dogs). Generally, I don't like people, because everytime I try to be nice, they give me dirty looks, but this is just some people. There are more better people out there. I love to help people, I find it very fun. I'm loyal, unique, loving and caring. Sometimes, people mistake me as being mean, and evil, or depressed. I'm the complete opposite. Although, sometimes I am rude and mean without meaning to be. I am very sarcastic, and I always stick up for the underdog. I always stand up for what I believe in, I speak my mind, without being rude about it. I'm nice until you f*** with me. That's basically it. Oh yeah, if any of you have a livejournal, look me up.
Dragonessfire01 :) laterz
E-mail: Dragonessfire01@yahoo.com
Gender: Female
Location: Bakersfield, CA
Occupation: None, but I want to be a psychologist or an animator.
Age: 18
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I know I'm only 18, and i'm very young, but I just don't beleive in love anymore. Cause i've never seen it actaully work. Yes i beleive in it to some extent but in the end we're only kidding ourselves. Its not real most of the time. You see real love in the movies all the time, but how many times do you see it in reality. Hardly. its like a once on a billion chance or something. You may think its love but later down the road the love it lost somewhere and you are only with that person because you don't know any better. At least this is what it seems like to me. I've had alot of interests in my days. I've had alot of almost boyfriends, never acutally a boyfriend though. I attract some guys, yes... they are sweet and friendly, some are just creepers, one is in love with me, but i don't really like any of these boys back. I'd hate to go out with them if i don't really like them the way they like me, it just doesn't seem fair. I don't beleive i should convince myself to like anybody, it shoudl just happen. I'm really shy at first, but once i find my groove i'm alright. I want to be able to find a guy that i'm totally attracted to all around, and i've only found one of those... we had a fling, but it faded a year ago, and sometimes i still think about him alot, and i really miss him.i guess i'm not completely over him. but i know that it will never work out, i'm away at college he's still in highschool, and we don't talk anymore. So i want to move on, i want that confindence where i can talk to anybody, i don't want people to think i'm unapproachable anymore, i don't want to just tease these boys who like me, tis not fair... but when i'm comfortable with the boys.. i'm jsut natually a flirty person. I'm not exactly sure where i'm going with this, i don't know what my question is, i just need a new set of eyes to look at me. My friends can't really help me anymore. I just want to know what you think... thanks. (link)
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well... you know i felt that way too. im 18 too by the way. ok, im going to tell you my life story and hopefully you'll understand. im sorry, this could be long. and by the end you will probably ask why i told you all this stuff..im open and honest...perhaps too honest lol. well, when i was a little girl, ive always been love obsessed. ive been molested, and my mom and dad used drugs on top of that drank and my mom got drunk and passed out constantly, and was gone for weeks at a time. the only person that loved and cared for me was my sister. She became my mother. she being three years older than me, took care of me. made sure my hair was brushed, made sure i was fed, and etc. and etc. I sure hope youre not feeling uncomfortable. well, by the time i hit 13 or 14 i had my first period...you can guess who told me about it... my sister. my mother wasnt really always there, but its ok. well, since i wasnt able to get love and attention all the time as i wanted, i became obsessed with finding it. Strange isnt it? I found my reason for why i came on this earth early. when most people dont find it in a lifetime. it was to find love and be loved in return. i was soon looking for love in all the wrong places, and soon enough gave up my virginity at age 17 to someone i really loved. but i just realized, he was just like every other guy out there. he used me, as another tried... i used to be free to trust...but he helped me see that not everyone is worthy of trust. all he did was lie to me over stupid little things. he would cheat on me and then tell me and i would still be by his side. im a very loyal and devoted person. anyway, a year or so after we broke up, i was miserable. I desperately wanted to find the person i was meant to spend the rest of my life with. one thing ive noticed about love is that its not gonna find you by just sitting around. you have to look for it. keep trying. i dont know whether or not you believe in God, or believe in wishing on stars...but here's how i met the man of my dreams.... i was sitting alone in my room, tears streaming down my face and talking to God. this is what i told Him: "God? all i have ever wanted was for someone to love and protect me. for someone who is willing to put me before everyone else...someone loyal and someone who is attracted to me in every way possible. to see me as a friend, as well as a wife. yet everytime i give my heart to someone, they break it. Why out of all people was it me? why not to someone who deserves it?" ....foolish i know. but i then asked him for help to find this person. and ive even wished on stars and in the bulletins everyone posts on myspace. ...well, i met Corey on the 24, of May. at precisly 3:00am. he told me that when he saw my picture on my myspace, that he had to find and get ahold of me somehow. he asked for my number and i asked my sis for premission, since shes good with guys. she told me it was ok, so i had him call. at first i didnt take him seriously. but we talked from 3 to 8 in the morning. nonstop. he told somewhere between all that time, that he loved me. although he put it off. he kept saying he wanted to tell me something. but didnt know if it was the right time. he was scared that he would scare me off in some way or another. but he didnt. although, i still didnt take him seriously. he fell in love with me, because we've experienced the same stuff in our lives. all he wanted was to feel wanted and understood. the night he met me, was that he was thinking of suicide...until his best friend sean told him to look on myspace for someone. and there i was. so we dont think it was a coincidence. we both see each other as miracles from God. i can fully understand why you dont believe in love. maybe you still need some time... or maybe you simply didnt look hard enough. but please, try to look. theres someone out there for everyone. although, not everyone finds their match. hurry, and find them. im sorry that its too long. i hope you find what you are looking for in good time.
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I have a friend who's dad is a pric. He is a sick person who has done sadistic things to her. the thing is she hides it. She's been hiding it for years. I didn't know about it until recently and i've known for 6 years. Well she's been using drugs and she's been trying to stop so shee was in a lot of pain. Well i keep telling my friend that she needs help that she needs to go to the police or her dad will never stop hurting her but she's afraid to. Then she told me that she got help and i found that she lied about it. she just didn't want me to worry. I'm not mad at her i just dont know how to help her. I tried going to the school but they cant do anything until she wants to do something. i know she wants help she's just scared how can i convince her that she needs to get help? (link)
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ok, what you should do, is tell her you are there for her, that you love her, and you need her to be strong. it really does depend on what hes doing, but tell her he could wind up killing her (mentally or physically) and she really does need to get help. i would be able to help further if i were to know more
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My most recent BF just asked me out wednesday, and i really like him. But for some reason i find myself always wanting to be with him. Like i've never wanted to be with any of my other BFs like i want to be with him. For some reason i think i like him more than he likes me....and it's really upsetting me. I'm always the one making the 1st moves and asking to hangout...becuase i want to spend time with him, and he's just goin along with it. HELP SOMEONE I have seriously cried over this before. ANY ADVICE??? (link)
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all i can think of, is wait for him to call you. act like you dont care. ive heard from a guy that this works really well. and even if he doesnt like you, thats fine. you could always grow on him. he could actually start changing. you never know ;)
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well okay im a 16/f and i live in katy,texas my name is nikita. well in my computer applications class there's this girl named nelma karina. & she black but doesn't act black at all and she acts really white. and she's really popular at my school i guess you could say. and she's really loud and gets a lot of attention. well anyways, well she told me that her and this other girl jessica rodriguez are both in cosmetology class and are doing this project where they pick someone to give a makeover. well she asked me if i wanted to do it becuase she says alot of people talk about me and say im messy and start drama. and i'll agree i've done some bad things and have said stuff about people becuase when people talk about me i get mad. and she said she wants to help me change that as well as my look. well i asked my friend jackie if nelma and her other friend jessica are in her cosmetology and she said no so nelma lied to me about that. and she wants me to take pics of myself to see what i need to imrove and pt on weight because im so skinny. and im not sure if she's really doing this as a cruel joke since she lied to me. and i really want to know should i do all this?? please help me!! asap!!! (link)
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ok. first of all, never, ever ever and i do mean NEVER change the way you look for someone else. yes, it could be true that this is a cruel joke. But also there is beauty in every heart as well as darkness and ugliness. dont change the way you are, unless you fully want to. dont change yourself because of what others say. i will definately bet that you are a pretty girl. there are just some people that want to make you feel bad because of things that happened to them. youre beautiful, no matter what bad things you have done. remember that.
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A boy and I had gotten really close, and I REALLY like him, more than I should. The other day he told me he cannot persue anything with me because wrestling is coming up and he doesn't think it would be at all fair to me since he is so dedicated to it. I understand, and he said we can be close friends and see how we are after wrestling is over. The problem is, wrestling lasts about 3 months, and so far he has definitely been avoiding me. He won't talk to me. Do you think he was using wrestling as an excuse to end things? I don't know, but it's been hurting me a lot since I like him SO much. I'm trying to be mature about it and to understand and not push, but I'm so upset.
Advice? Thanks in advance. (link)
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yes, im sorry but its most likely he was. but dont worry, you'll find someone better than that. if he really wanted to be with you, he wouldnt have ended it that way. he would have tried to work things out. no matter how busy he was he could at least call. guys are jackasses. dont worry. a true man wont ditch you no matter what the circumstances.
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So, this christmas, i don't really know what i want. I was thinking of getting a PS2 (a used one from like e-bay or something, cause we don't have alot of money to spend for a brand-new one). I'm not really interested in many of the games, but one that I realyl know that i want is DDR. My question is where is a really cheap price that i can buy it? Like target, walmart, etc. Also, i heard that some of the mats really suck, so which one/s do you reccomend. Some i've heard slip, don't register moves, etc. Anyways, I was also wondering about Guitar Hero. Is that really that fun of a game thats worth it for $100? (link)
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i know nothing of DDR. although i heard it was really fun. my friend had it. but i would say guitar hero is one of my all time favorite games. yes, i would say its worth 100.. but thats my opinion
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So i blocked this guy that i like because my friend told him i liked him and he and i hardly know eachother (other than a few messages we've talked through & seeing eachother at school even though we've never said hi or even talked in person before) and i was really embarrassed and sad and mad that my friend did that. anyways..my friend told me that the guy i like already had a gf and everything but i was so depressed that night that i blocked my friend and the guy i like. welll now i really regret blocking the guy i like because that was stupid. i already forgave my friend and added him back, but is there anyway to get the guy i like back on my friends list WITHOUT having to send him a friend request??? please please please help!! (link)
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im sorry, but there isnt. you'll have to unblock him first and send him a friend request. Go to account settings by your homepage on myspace (by your default picture), go to block users and right under that click on "view list". then you should see all the people you blocked and you should see "unblock user" next to their picture
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hii i really wanna watch a g0od anime i'm into very emotional ones da most but ialso kinda like comedywith romance but After i saw "Nana" there is'nt one dat measures up since iloved dat anime so much lol.... any ideas? thanksz (link)
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inuyasha is a good one. my personal favorite :) fruits basket is another good one. rurouni kenshin is good. i highly recommend going on google, and then type in tv links and click on the very first one. it has tons of awesome anime to choose from.
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what are ways to really "get a guy going" sexually just turn him on completely. and also what are tips to make giving him head really pleasing to him...thanks!! (link)
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well, i know some tips for going down. a little under the head is a sort of bump. run your tongue under that while sucking on him, k?? ;) good luck
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I really don't know what to do. I just feel like dying. I let guys touch me and kiss me and they almost have sex with me. I feel horrible. i'm a whore! I don't really know what to do. Every guy is calling me a whore behind my back. I just want them to have respect for me. Which I know I can't get back. All I wanted was a boyfriend. I have a lot of fun when they're touching me and fingering me. I'm such a whore. I just don't know how I can change things. Any advice? (link)
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awww, dont say that. just stop what you are doing, cause acting this way will never get you a decent boyfriend. Just be yourself but keep it in your pants lol ok? not trying to be rude. just trying to lighten the moment for you. just be kind to yourself. good luck!!!
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i had one breif attack of pancreatitis 3 months ago, and scince then i have not had one drop of alchohol. i was wondering when/if it is safe for me to drink again. (link)
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well, if you want me to be honest, i dont think you should drink anymore, for your health. but you can do whatever you want though. sorry i couldnt help more. good luck
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Does everyone have some people that hate them?I was just wondering. (link)
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no matter what, theres always gonna be someone who hates you or someone else.
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i am 7 months pregnant. i honestly do not like my boyfriends mother that much . she is 37 years old and i am 20. she is a very very pushy woman and always needs things to go her way and has no problem whatsoever putting her 2 cents in any given situation, even what to name our son. to make things short, i want my mom to be in the hospital room when i give birth, however, do not want my boyfriends mom in there because she makes me uncomfortable and i do not care for her much. i understand and respect the fact that my boyfriend loves and adores his mother and would never do anything to try and change that, however, we have not always seen eye to eye(his mother and i) ..my question is : i need my mom to be in the room when i give birth, but is it wrong of me to request that my boyfriends mother stay out? ..it would really hurt my boyfriend, since he wants his mother there, however, would really bother and hurt me if she were in there because i feel she would ruin my experience of bringing my baby into the world. Also, my mother feels that since i am her daughter, she should be in the room and she does not like my boyfriends mother as well. i feel as if she will be offended and hurt (my mom) if i invite my boyfriends mother in the room as well because she feels like she is fighting for the fact that i am her daughter and she is my mom, not his mom. (link)
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ok, im a aunt of three and my sister and i are very close, so i know what im talking about even though im 18 and childless. you dont need to feel bad about not wanting his mom there. youre doing the work of pushing this baby out, so you shouldnt have to feel bad. as long as your comfortable. so dont worry about it.
good luck
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Ok so i like this guy and he is really nice tome and a grade older than me and i really like him. We became like Best Friend and i asked this earlier but i dont wanna keep it a secret!! *DUH* What girl wants to keep it a secret when he could have the chance of asking them out..... So i wanna know how i could tell him so please help!!!
By the way i really want good advice and like a lot of comments for advice so please dont just read it and not comment!
Thanks For The Ones Who Help Me (link)
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well you should be up front with him and tell him
straight out. a lot of guys like it when a girl asks them out, so there would be a better chance if he would go out with you when you ask him. so good luck
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ok so for the past month or so ive been really tired all the time, ive gained a lot of weight (im not that fat though) and ive been sad a lot but i cant figure out what im sad about. I used to love playing games with my sister, but not all i want to do is just be alone and watch tv or something.
i eat a tonn and i just feel a lot of anger and nervousness.
whats going on with me and what can i do about it???
14/f btw.
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the only things i can think of, is that you could be pregnant or depressed. im sorry i couldnt tell you more
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I was wondering if anyone where I could find a download for the song "just like me" by run dmc featuring sarah mclachlan. Its from the album "checks, thugs, and rock 'n' roll". I tried to download it on ARES but got no results. Thank you in advance! (link)
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try limewire, they have a free site you can download and its all free music.
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I put my boyfriend in front of my best friend, then lost them both. I'm alone now, I regret my choice immensly but there is nothing I can do to take it back. She won't forgive me, but no one else ever calls to hang out. I try making plans with other people, but they're always too busy. Please help, I'm so alone. (link)
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I'm sorry... I made the same mistake too, dont worry, except this best friend of mine was my sister, the only mother i had when i was growing up. The only thing you can do, is to go to her house and BEG her, tell her your so sorry and you know now it was a mistake. that is unless you've already tried that.
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ohkay so im a girl of course haha and im turning 14 im going to have a party but i need to know what songs i should have for my party, and also to know if you think its bad to have just a boom box but not a dj. thanks guys! (link)
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I think that you should have happy, fun, or energetic/active music. also, i dont think its bad at all if its just a boom box! have fun!
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my schools homecoming is this saturday and i cant think of how to do my nails. does anyone know any good sites to look at some pictures?? if it helps, my dress is short, black with a silver brooch and has pink ribbon at the bottom. (link)
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well, i couldnt find any pictures. but i recommend going to a local nail salon. they should have designs for you to look at
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one time one of my girlfriends was talking with all of my guy friends. there's about 7 of them. somehow they got on to the topic of who was the prettiest of the bunch. i was not with them when they were talking about this. they said that another one of my girlfriends was the hottest but i was the most beautiful, and i wasn't there so they weren't saying it to be nice. anyway, i hear about this and before i never thought i was really pretty and thats why i never got a boyfriend. but now i know they think im really pretty yet still i have not gotten a boyfriend. well i had one but it didnt last long. i'm not slutty. i know i talk a lot but i try not to around the guys. i flirt occasionally but not with everyone. i've told some of my guy friends that i liked them but i get nothing! is there something i'm doing wrong? i still don't think im the prettiest so it's not because im concieted now. (link)
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it also depends on where youre going to school...but trust me, im not pretty at all, and i still got a boyfriend. trust me, i bet your prettier than me. if you not already yet, wait until high school. good luck!
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just be yourself and stay the way you are, that way you'll get one in no time ;) just be patient.
Good luck!
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