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adviceman49
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I'm Kayla and I'm 23 years old. I have been battling with depression for a year and a half now. My life is pretty great actually. I have my very own beautiful house that I pay for, with the help of my 2 best friends, I have a wonderful boyfriend that loves me more than life itself, I have a college degree, a stable job, a car, a dog, everything people typically strive for. But somehow, I am just not satisfied. I think I hate myself and will never give myself the credit for my accomplishments. I hate my face. My nose is way too big, bigger than any nose I've seen on anyone. It's not little and cute like every other nose. It's long, pointy, with a huge hump. My hair is too dry, I can't do anything with it. My toes are all the same size and look ridiculous in sandals. I can't find any clothes I like to wear because I feel so ugly 100% of the time and no crop top or accessories can make me feel sexy. My boyfriend wants to have sex ALL the time but I never want to. I used to be 100 pounds like 6 months ago. I had a flat stomach, abs, bathing suit body to a T. Now I'm 130, my stomach pokes out, sometimes I look pregnant. I know most people think "oh poor you." but it's really messing with my head. I think about suicide on a daily basis. Everytime I drive, I think "If i just turn the wheel and close my eyes, I won't feel a thing". Everytime I walk into my garage, I think "All I have to do is leave that door closed and turn the car on and just sit here and breathe." Every time I'm at home and my roommates are gone (like this week, they're in New York; We live in Texas) I think "I'm sure I can guess the code on Caitlyns safe and get her gun. One second, boom, don't feel a thing". These are thoughts that bombard me every single day. And leave me with whatifs. I have never made an attempt. But I think that's only because I'm scared to feel pain. I would never drown myself, or set myself on fire, or jump off a bridge. Is this doctor worthy? Can I just get assurance that I'm not the only one who feels like this? Why am I not satisfied with my life? I know it could be alot worse. Please help me :(
Sincerely,
Sad All The Time (link)
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Every life is very precious including yours :)
I lost my father 3 years ago to suicide and it was very traumatic on my mother and me both.
It drove a lot of the relationships that my father had with people away from us because they blamed my mom and me for him killing himself plus it drove away his side of the family and they also blamed him plus I beat myself up like I could have done something to stop him from doing it.
I was the very first one to see him that morning.
But I am going to tell you suicide is not the answer because it tears people apart and makes everyone blame themselves plus it makes everyone feel super depressed.
I am only 19 years old and I am wry depressed but I still hold my head high and like they say fake it until you make it.
Hope I was helpful and I will be praying for you.
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Can i get pregnant from myself (link)
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Not unless you have gotten a sperm transfer from a male doner place and had it put within your egg.
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