Member Since: September 18, 2012
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i am 14 years old,female. my parents have been separted for 3 years, divorced for exactly 2. i didnt really realize that my dad was abusive towards me until a few months ago. he is a narcissist to the maxxxxxxxxx like no joke. he is very smart with numbers and facts and so he tries to twist EVRYTHING around and make it seem something differnt to benefit HIM. i went out to dinner with him to tell him how I feel not him, and all he kept talking was himself, me, me, me. and im sick of it. he uses self pity, manipulation, denial, lying, everything. i have 4 other syblings, my older sister doesnt even see my dad becasue she knows what a psycho he is. my little brother doesnt even "care" or so he says about havign a father right now becasue my dad hasnt seen or talked to him since fathers days. and that is what gets me most mad, i am a very protective sibling and im a straight shooter and have no problem with confronting people and so i was like wtf is going on? you dont feel like you should talk to him..like at all? but listen to this..he goes no im very hurt that HE (my little brother) hasnt texted me its very upsetting..im like are you fucking out of your mind? your the father like get ur shit together and be a father. and i told him the other day basically a fuck you that he doesnt care about anyone but himself and all he said was sorry you feel that way..like really? and i cant go back to seing him its such a toxicccccc relationship and i feel so much better not seeing him.BUT i was sooo stressed out because my dad being the narc that he is ALWAYS put me in the middle between me and my mom wanted me to pick sides and to go back and forth and its just such bullshit im so over him really. but over the 3 years i've lost frends, grades went down oyu name it, and this year of freshman year means a lot to me, and i want to do good, and i knew the first step was letting him go. i guess the hardest part was admitting that how i feel when i see him and when i dont, my feeling dont change, i still feel like i dint have a father. but i have to deal with that on my own and learn to accept it. so it's just affected me in (link)
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My brilliant answer is to not try to commit suicide! This is much more spiritual as it is physical. Ugh I sound like a religious fanatic.(I'm not religious at all-nor atheist). By reading your entry I concluded that you're an analytical person- a.k.a pretty smart in your thinking. You are strong and I respect you for that and the fact that you're a protective sibling. You are so right not to take anti- depressants.They do fuck (excuse my French) people up and you'll probably end up more depressed than ever. I have to say the teenage years are the toughest years of one's life. I just turned 17 and now going back to when I started being a teenager ..I have to say those were tough years; a lot of misunderstandings..but mostly I figured that was from my part. Now that I'm almost over my teenage phase, I'll be glad to say "I made it out alive". Just keep an open-mind, find new interests, find a fun harmless obsession, concentrate in school, and propose to yourself that you don't need a boyfriend; like most girls think they do...you'll just put more 'heavy loads on your back' ..This is my fist time on this website and I found it by chance. I had no intentions of signing up for it until I read the heading of your story at the right column and read your story. I felt it was important for you to read this and for you to know that I strongly recommend not hurting yourself in any way. I never felt the need more to tell someone that. You are my fellow sister and I hope in the end you'll understand life a little better. :)
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