Member Since: July 21, 2012
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Last Update: July 21, 2012
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I'm a 16 year old girl in New Jersey. I went to a private all-girls school for grade 9 and 10 , because I hate myself, my body, my lack of confidence and courage. My parents want to send me to public school next year for gr 11 for they can no longer afford private. I've been thinking about committing suicide and cry myself to sleep every night for about 2 years. I hate everything about me, but my skills and love in ICT. I lack confidence, courage, and am too scared to go out in public. I've kept a lot of secrets for friends and for myself from my family, and not helping out my parents in housework has made them weak. I have 3 younger sisters and a brother who's the youngest.
As much as I hate myself and intend to commit suicide for various reasons I cant explain, I want to watch my brother grow up too. I don't want that I commit suicide, and my mother gets ill from it, and the future of my siblings be shattered. I dont want my family to hold their heads in shame after my death. They've done nothing wrong raising me all this time- it's just that I'm a coward. I have migraines and other bodily problems, I dont want to have sex, I hate my body, I dont want to have children and get married, I dont want to step out in public, I dont want to go to college; I'm just too shy and nervous. The problem here is I cant visit or call any one without my family knowing, and I'm planning to get rid of myself before grade 11 starts. I want to die and rot in hell for the bastard and sins I am and have done, but I wanna see my family and sibligs and their future as well. I dont want my death to split the family apart; I'm a horrible rolemodel and my siblings arent that good as they should be either.
I honestly dont know what to do ; I'm too big of a coward for many reasons, but I'll miss living as well. Yeah, this is awkward, but I'm done with convincing myself I can do anything good. I'm lazy, emotional, and a little more than average in beauty. What should I do? (link)
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Please don't kill yourself, its good that your thinking about your family. They love you so much your parents worked hard to pay for your private school . If you feel lazy go do some sports, go find something you like to do . Maybe its the spiritual part pray pray pray. Suicide doesn't help , I know what you mean, I've been there done that. I used to cut myself but then i just i became more religious . I'm a muslim and i realized I have only one purpose in life to be a slave of God . So i hope you find anything that interests you but I'm really serious when I say this don't kill yourself. Because once your dead you can't come back you will be in that little hole and no one will be able to bring you back or stay in with you. Please please please don't kill yourself!
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this guy, everyone said he liked me and we would be cute together. I think it was messing with my head because i started to form feelings for him. i quickly brushed them away because i didn't really think i was attracted to him that much. it's been a few months and now my best friend and roommate likes him and he likes her. i feel crushed. but no one knew that i actually had feelings for him in the end. how can i cope with this?! (link)
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Don't worry its just a crush soon you will get over it just do something you want to do get your mind off of it , and just in case avoid seeing him so the feelings doesn't come rushing back.
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hello everyone. i'm 17 years old and i just dont seem to be happy anymore, i can't feel anything around me, i dont feel like talking to anyone and i cant even remember my old life. i feel sick and worthless, i always ask myself, whats the point of life? whats love? whats me?!! my thoughts scare me sometimes. i broke up with my bestfriend and he's a guy though. but i just cant feel it. sometimes i say maybe he's the reason of my depression.. but i dont really know.. im very tired of this, i forget how it feels to be trurly happy, sometimes i ask myself maybe the problem is with me? i cant even trust my parents, i always feel like they are hiding something and they lie to me. i cant feel anything and its killing me. whats wrong with me? how can i deal with this? is this normal? (link)
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Okay I know exactly what you mean, but killing yourself is not the problem to your solution. You should find something out there that you like to do it may be go do some sports tell close family about your situation be open . Or maybe your not happy spiritually some people feel like they are missing something from their life, so they look around search for a religion you know , something that makes sense to them and maybe you will realize what you want to do and how you want to set your life. But please PLEASE don't kill yourself.
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