Hello people! I'm not anything special, no *real* training, I've grown up in a pastor kid enviroment, so I've been the one people turn to a lot. I WON"T tell you you're question was stupid, and I won't give you a bogus answer. I love helping people, and my future profession is going to be in the psychiatric field, but I'm also into professional singing(I've been singing publicly since the age of two) so I know all sorts of tricks for that stuff too. I'll give anything a stab, except I suck at sports(sorry, can't help you make a field goal) and I'm not into the whole "in style" thing. I've got my own little fashion thing going on. I know a whole bunch of useless knowledge, and though I have my own issues, I can usually come up with a good solution if I'm not in the situation.
Lots of Love XOXO
Mycalina(aka Rose)
P.S. If you need a professional opinion to writings, I'm your girl. e-mail them to me!!!
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I have no idea what's wrong with me. I'm a teenage who has a "good" life. (meaning that there aren't any huge problems going on) I can't stand living though. I how I can't get love- because I truly believe that love is the only thing worth living for.
I how every relationship i've ever been in has ended before it even started. I'm considered "negative" but I don't see how that's a big problem- because when i'm not around my immediate family I keep all of my negativity to myself. I cry all the time and I can't stop thinking of . I wish I could die so badly. There's nothing that I want to do in this world. And I'm sick of this line of thought. I've been to tons of counselors and therapists but they don't help me. They actually make me feel worse.
I get plenty of exercise and I take vitamins and do all of the things I should be doing to stay healthy. I'm considered "obese" with a BMI of like 31. (5'3" and 173 lbs) I used to be 183. And I was down to 160 for a few days but of course I had to gain it back because of stress. I'm sick of dieting and I'm not doing it anymore. I'm just going to let myself be fat.
I SCHOOL. And we have to waste our whole lives doing it. It's pointless and I don't even NEED it. I already know everything they teach us. I don't like any of the things that I thought were my passions. Acting, singing, and dancing used to make me so happy. I still "love" them but they require so much work and I feel so inferior when I try to do them because I have a bad voice (even though I have a good voice- it sounds really bad and nasal and I can't belt) and I'm fat so my natural dancing ability is underappreciated. And my acting, well- I thought I was the best actress in the world. But no one ever reassures me of this.
I life and all I ever do (when i'm not at rehearsal or dance classes) is cry and think about how wonderful everything would be if i could just have someone who LOVES me. I know I never will again. (i was in a 7-day relationship with a guy who had Asberger's syndrome in september) I'm a huge turn-off and a dispickable person regardless of my attractiveness. I AM SO ATTRACTIVE AND PRETTY AND GORGEOUS AND I HAVE PRETTY HAIR BUT NO ONE NOTICES.
I DON'T WANT TO CHANGE ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF. And I'm not going to. I want to end my life so much.
But I can't bring myself to do so. I this- can someone tell me what to do? (link)
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I don't claim to have all the answers.
I have the same BMI, and it sucks, I agree.
But don't kill yourself.
Not a good idea.
I don't know if this will help or not, but I have two methods that keep me going.
One is that I have a notebook. a plain, spiral, no writing on the cover, and I write in it, a lot.
the second is, I take a red pen or marker, and write on my skin, I write all the things that are wrong, and then wash it off(make sure the pen or marker washes off first). It makes everything feel a little better, just acknowledging it.
If you ever need someone to talk to, e-mail or IM me.
Lots of Love,
Ms.Mycalina
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What exactly is the definition of an eating disorder and depression? I go through periods of time, usually they only last 1 or 2 days, (often on weekends or vacations) where I feel totally depressed and fat. I just got an exercise bike and it is REALLY hard for me to stay off it. I feel like every second of time I have, I should be using it. I weigh 85 pounds, and I'm 14, so deep down, I know that I have a decent body. I fear the future, and I fear becoming overweight. For a while, I've been giving part of my dinner to my dad. Particularly things I don't like to eat, such as green beans, sweet potatoes, and chicken. ( But only certain parts of my dinner.) He is starting to suspect me of anorexia.
I don't think I'm anorexic, I just cannot digest a ton of food (mainly veggies and meat) at one time. I feel like my life is "All Or Nothing." I HAVE to eat healthy for the day. If I don't eat healthy and perfectly, then I end up giving up and pigging out on candy. I believe these problems are connected to depression-related problems.
What sense do you make out of all of this?
Am I going crazy?
Please don't sugguest I get professional help.
There is NO way I can do that.
So if you say, "see a doctor."
I will rate you a 1.
Thanks. (link)
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an eating disorder is where your mind has been negativly affected towards itself, and therefore it begins to think that it is supposed to do things it should not.
Anorexia is often caused by low self esteem(trust me, you aren't alone on that), but it is one of the easier ones to cure. Truthfully, you sound like you have OCD, because of you're "all or nothing" philosophy. Truthfully, you could have depression, and sometimes eating disorders are caused by it.
one reason I don't think you're anorexic is because if you were, you'd be thinking wayyy more about what you were eating. my best friend at one point was proANA, and she would be so strict about only eating veggies and stuff.
I completely understand about the periods of time where you're depressed thing. I have the same problem. I think its related to the fact that being alone for long periods of time makes me sad. Like a puppy, LOL.
But I don't think that this means depression.
I think you just need someone to talk to, someone to fill some time so you're not always on the bike. its really unhealthy to not eat much and then exercise a lot.
If you'd like, e-mail me your IM(if you have it, if not, just e-mail me), I have Yahoo, MSN, and AIM.
~Lots of Love~
Ms.Mycalina
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