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I'm sorry to hear about your situation. While nobody can ever say they know how you feel because in truth your experience is unique to you, I can assure you that I relate to your life on some level.
First off, you say you are afraid to reach out. Well guess what, you have reached out in going to a therapist. For a lot of people that's one of the hardest things to bring themselves to do and it shows a lot of courage. It also shows that you are serious about making things better.
We all have ups and downs in our lives. It's kind of the nature of being human. The key is to make sure those downs don't prevent you from living your life in the territory of the ups.
Based on the fact that you say you are unsure of yourself, I would guess that much of your problem stems from self-esteem issues which can easily go hand in hand with depression.
I would recommend continuing with your therapist of course. Trying to take on step at a time in building your confidence might help. For example, focus on something you feel like you know how to do well and do it. Maybe then you'll be willing to try something you think you can do okay and try to work on improving your skill at it. And maybe eventually, you will be ready to take on things that you don't feel like you are very good at.
I often recommend at book called "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. In your case, while that may be helpful, I'd suggest his book "Ten Days to Self-Esteem."
You don't have to live like this and you can make things better. I'm rooting for you.
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