I may not know a lot, and I may be young. But I will try to answer you and give you advice to the best of my ability!
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Wow! AMAZING RESPONSE. Tears are rolling down my face as I read it. You are very wise. Hard to believe your a teenager. My son would probably be affected for the worse if I did commit suicide. He's 22. He's the one who called the police about a month ago when I tried and took me to the hospital (I didn't stay). He and I are pretty close. But he doesn't know what to say or do anymore and has his own life. My daughter is another story... I think she would look at it as a plus. I have a year old Jack Russell who is with me at all times. Last night he stuck to me like glue. He's the only thing really keeping me here right now. My sisterinlaw killed herself in 2007. My "family" still badmouths her. Says she did it just to get back at my brother (who was cheating on her). I'm adopted and my "parents" have 2 kids of their own. They'v pretty much disowned me for years now. I just don't have many options at this point in my life. I hope you get this (teenager who responded). Your words were very kind. I wish you nothing but the best with your life (link)
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Thank-you! I'm not sure if you wanted/expected a response(I'm not exactly very good at reading people and situations).
But I'm... humbled and just so glad I could help you in some way.
I'm sorry about your sister-in-law... I actually talked my sister out of it. She had a skin condition and was over weight. Only had one friend on the internet, and everyone at my church would talk bad about her and ignore her. She was suicidal from the age of 14ish till about a year ago. I never even knew... My childhood friend attempted it because she was bullied, about a month after I told her I'd be furious with her if she tried. She went to counseling and is better now though.
But enough about me...
Your son sounds like he does care about you. I don't know the history between you and your daughter, and adoptive parents so I can't exactly comment on that.
You mentioned you don't have many options. You also said you are on disability, do you have a job? Maybe you could volunteer somewhere, if you have time.
Do you have a hobbie, or something you enjoy doing? Maybe finding something you like to do could help you relax or boost your mood maybe...
I throughout reading you're last post till now, I kept thinking of a quote I heard in a tv show once...probably not exactly like how it originally went or that relevant to the situation, but I thought I'd share it with you.
'We where thinking of what happiness would look like if we could give it a physical form. I believe he said that, "Happiness is like glass, even though you may not notice it, it's still definitely there. Simply shift your point of view slightly, and that glass will glisten as it reflects the light. I doubt that anything could argue its existence more eloquently"'
I too wish you the best.
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I'm just not any good for anyone right now. I have nothing to offer. Thank you again for such good advice. I was scared to death (literally) when I googled "How to commit sucicide". I was so afraid of the information I would get and wondered how long it would take me to act on it. Then, I was directed to this site. I still don't know what I'm going to do. I'm kind of homebound due to agoraphophia and lack of transportation. I've even started pulling my hair out due to my bad nerves. I have really long hair and used to get compliments on it. Nobody compliments me on anything anymore. I'm looking so old for 48. Stress will do that to you. I watch tv all day. Mostly comedy sitcoms just to try to find something to smile about. But these days I cry way more than I laugh and smile. My dog makes me happy but sometimes I feel he'd be better off without me. If you go to Vicki Evans on facebook, I'm the one with a picture of Tatum, a Jack Russell sitting in a red chair for my profile picture. I also have skin problems, probably due to stress. My stomach hurts all the time. I never have enough food. I had to sell my food stamps last month just to come up with enough money for rent. I really don't know how much longer I can do this. I've called for housing assistance but got an extrememly rude lady who told me I should be able to easily live on 700 a month. I'd like to know what she lives on. Ugh! Anyway, I don't want to constantly bring YOU down. I guess that's why I distance myself from people...I am not good for others. Have a nice day.
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