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Q: God, I'm so stupid. I don't even know how to navigate this site. After I got an answer, I don't know what to click on to post another quetion. I just forwarded a question by accident to tech support. God, I'm SO STUPID. I SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO LIVE. (this was my next question): I know other people have problems and there are many injustices going on in the world, but I've tried everything. I'm 3 mos. behind in rent. My daughter was paying my rent but she cut me off without any notice and I just can't make it anymore. I'm on disability but only get $700 a month. I can barely live on that let alone get caught up. I've been diagnosed with agoraphobia, ptsd and bipolar 2. I have absolutely nobody in my life. I'm 48 and have no friends, no family, nothing to live for. I tried to kill myself about a mo ago. My son called the police and a bunch showed up at my door. They took me to a Crisis Clinic but I was there about an hour and no doctor or anybody came to talk to me so I left. I called a suicide hotline number and was put on hold everytime I called. I feel like God is telling me it's time to go. I've been literally pulling my hair out. My bathroom floor is covered in hair. I'm getting older and uglier. Nobody will ever want me.
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First off, I can only imagine the pain and suffering you are going through and truly feel for you. I'm also willing to bet other people feel the same way - like your son. Clearly he didn't want to see you commit suicide. And my guess as to why is that he loves you too much to see that happen.
So, let's look at that as a starting point, to help you realize that you do indeed have people out there who love you and care about you.
As far as navigating this site goes, I think you are being a bit too hard on yourself. Being that you are 48, I bet you probably didn’t grow up on technology like the kinds today. Heck, I'm only 34 and even I didn't really have any exposure to the Internet until I was out of high school.
Given the diagnosis you have, I guess that it is same to assume that you've seen your share of mental health professionals. However, doing so is probably hard for you considering the agoraphobia.
My suggestions would be to seek out groups or individuals who can help but don't necessarily require you to put yourself in an awkward or scary physical environment. For example, find some online support groups where you can meet people and gain some emotional support without ever having to do anything in person. Also, order the book, "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. I've recommended it several times for people who are depressed and have self-worth issues and will continue to do so because it works.
Did you know you can also have sessions with a therapist online? One good source is Liveperson.com.
Also, meditation can be a huge help. here's a good guide on getting started.http://health.howstuffworks.com/wellness/stress-management/how-to-get-started-with-meditation.htm
Hang in there.
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EXCELLENT ADVICE! I never know if the person so nice as to give such thoughtful advice ever sees my reponse? I was assuming this was where I put it since this is what comes up after I rate it. So far, I've never heard back from the same person twice. I just want you to know that your effort and time spent writing me,...letting me know there IS someone out there who cares about a complete stranger has helped...today.
Thank you.
I'm going to write the name of that book down and see if I can find it.
Thank you so much
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